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REVISED " CHAPTER 1"" CANCER" " I STEPPED OUT OF THE DARKNESS, BACK INTO THE LIGHT, MY CHANGE OF LIFE BLESSING...."

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" CANCER" " I STEPPED OUT OF THE DARKNESS, BACK INTO THE LIGHT, MY CHANGE OF LIFE BLESSING...."  CHAPTER 1....

I FOUND THIS OUT MAY, 27TH. 2009/POEM WRITTEN NOVEMBER 15TH. AT 6:43AM - 7:07AM.......
WRITTEN FOR THE WWW.GRAPEVINE.COM & WWW.WHITEBISON.ORG....

SACAJAWEA INDIAN MARKET, GIFTS,DECOR,CANDLES,MAIL ORDER ON LINE, CHEAPER THAN ANY STORE, EMAIL: ZREZGIRL@AOL.COM CONTACT NORRIE ( NORRIE CARRIES "WALKING ON THE RED ROAD BOOKS...."

IT STARTED IN MY LEFT LUNG, 1/3 LUNG CANCER STAGE 3B, 25% CHANCE THAT I COULD BE HELPED WITH A LIFE EXPECTANCY AT 2 YEARS, I NEVER BELIEVED THE DOCTOR'S WHAT I WAS TOLD. I BELIEVE THE % IS MUCH HIGHER WITH GOOD POSITIVE KARMA ATTITUDE, A CONCRETE FOUNDATION OF FAITH AND SPIRITUALITY. THANKS TO THE SIOUX LAKOTA WAYS I LIVE EVERYDAY,EVERY SECOND....

NOW I HAVE CANCER THROUGH OUT MY BRAIN, EVERYWHERE. NO BIGGIE THAT IS MY LIFE.......GRINS....

IF YOU WERE TO LOOK AT ME, YOU WOULD NEVER KNOW I HAVE CANCER. PEOPLE CAN'T BELIEVE IT. IT'S ALL O.K. WITH ME ACCEPTING THIS NEW CHAPTER. IT IS ALL FROM THE "CIRCLE OF LIFE NECKLACE I WEAR...."

A CRISIS IN MY LIFE WAS UPON ME IN MOMENTS, WHEN I FOUND OUT I HAD LUNG CANCER, I ACCEPTED THAT IN THE DOCTORS OFFICE RIGHT THEN AND THERE. I HAD NO OTHER CHOICE. IT WAS JUST ME THE DR. MY GUARDIAN ANGEL, MY ANIMAL TOTEMS, AND THE CREATORS HANDS HOLDING ME UP AND STRONG, I WAS IN GOOD HAND'S....

THE NEXT 4 MONTHS, I THOUGHT OF A LOT OF HARD THINGS, MY MORTALITY, MY LIFE AS I ONCE KNEW IT, MENTAL ANGUISH, SLEEPINESS'S NIGHTS, MY FAMILY THAT WAS HURTING, MY LIVE LIST, MY FRIENDS MANY OF WHOM I LOVE JUST AS FAMILY, FRIENDS WHO LOVE ME BACK THE SAME WAY. IF YOU WERE TOO PICK UP MY CELL PHONE AND OPEN IT, YOU WOULD FIND A LARGE PINK ROSE TAKEN AT MY SPONSORS HOUSE, AND ABOVE THAT THE WORDS " I LOVE EVERYONE!....

I HIDE NOTHING FROM ANYONE, SINCE I FOUND OUT I COULD NOT GO TO MEETINGS "12 STEP PROGRAM",  HAVING A LOVING SPONSOR HIS WIFE, MUCH LOVED FAMILY, THAT I REACHED OUT TO, I WAS IN GREAT HANDS....

" I WILL FIGHT THIS, I WILL BEAT THIS...."

I MADE UP A SAYING CALLED THE CHEMO WALL. IS WHAT HAPPENS AFTER A CHEMO OR RADIATION TREATMENT. YOUR BODY WILL SHUT DOWN AND TELL YOU IT'S TIME TO SLEEP, ANYWHERE BETWEEN 1 TO 3 DAYS....

NO EATING, DRINKING MAYBE FLUIDS, THAT'S ALL AND THEN IT MAY SAY NO MORE SLEEPING 4 YOU, SO THEN YOU ARE AWAKE FOR 1 - 2 DAYS, JUST MAKE IT EASY ON YOURSELF AND GO WITH THE FLOW....

AFTER MY LAST SESSION OF CHEMO, FRI/SAT/SUN/ THAT'S ALL I DID WAS SLEEP. COME MONDAY & TUESDAY MY BODY SAID NO MORE SLEEP FOR YOU....

AT 2 AM IN THE MORNING I GOT UP WALKED DOWNSTAIRS TO FINISH UP A 64 OZ, OF V-SPLASH. I WALKED INTO THE BATHROOM TO GET A LOOK AT MY EYE AND FELT WEIRD. OUT OF NOWHERE MY LEFT HAND STARTED TO CRAMP INTENSELY, FELT LIKE SOMEONE JUST SLICED OPEN MY HAND, AND A GREATER FORCE THAN MYSELF HAD THE PALM OPENING UP LIKE THE GRAND CANYON. I BEGAN TO FALL AS MY LEFT SIDE OF BODY WENT NUMB. FIRST THING MY HEAD HIT WAS A METAL BOOK CASE, GASHED MY HEAD GOOD, BEFORE I KNEW IT, I WAS A CRUMPLED MESS ON THE FLOOR TRYING TO UNDERSTAND WHAT WAS ROLLING DOWN MY FACE....

BLOOD THAT DID NOT HELP MATTERS, I BECAME SCARED WITH ALL THE IMMENSE PAIN I JUST FELT. MY HEART WAS RACING A 100 MPH. SO IT SEEMED, LIKE MY HEART WAS GOING TO JUMP OUT OF MY CHEST....












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