Never saw myself being deserving of love.
My only comprehension was the Hypertrophic Cardiomyopathy,
encasing my heart as a protective barrier.
Because I didn't want to become vulnerable.
I was at risk of a heart attack.
Had many complications from the pain.
Felt my cardiac muscle tightening and squeezing my chest.
Feeling the oxygen being cut off from the myocardium walls closing in.
I didn't know if I was going to survive.
When you came I was heavily guarded.
Thought I was stopping you from clogging my arteries.
Afraid of undergoing heart surgery.
I had to diagnose you.
Because you could be the cells that cause heart disease.
I couldn't take that chance.
But my body went into shock!
Then my heart just stopped.
You reached in,
No matter how thick my cardio myocytes.
Made it through my left ventricle,
Pushing the blockage through my Aorta,
And traveled through my circulatory system.
Then as if that wasn't enough.
You went back through my superior vena cava,
Passed my right atrium,
Then through my pulmonary artery,
You restarted my whole cardiovascular system.
As much as I tried to push you away,
I knew that I needed you.
Because you kept me breathing.
You helped to turn my deoxygenated blood, into oxygenated blood.
Moving it through the capillaries that surrounds the alveoli in my lungs,
to move carbon dioxide,
So that I could finally exhale.
You saved my life!
And what would I do!
How could I even live, without the Beating of my heart that kept me alive all this time?
You're the reason I'm still alive!