LIFE FOR ME FEELS AS IF I'M LIVING IN A BLACK HOLE!
A PLACE FILLED WITH ONLY DARKEST AND NO WHERE TO GO!
AS HARD AS I TRY TO CLIMB OUT OF THIS HOLE THAT I'M IN,
IT ONLY SEEMS TO GET DEEPER AND DEEPER, I JUST KEEP FALLING BACK IN!
FEELING SO LOST AND CONFUSED, THIS BLACK HOLE HAS A HOLD ON ME!
NO LIGHT, NO BRIGHT SUNSHINE OF DAY,
SO MUCH SADNESS AND FEELING OF EMPTINESS,
THIS IS THE LIFE THAT BELONGS TO ME!
LIES, DECEIT AND SO MUCH BETRAYAL,
THIS IS THE REASON WHY I'M IN THE HOLE THAT I'M IN!
TRUST AND FAITH WAS ONCE A PART OF MY LIFE!
ALWAYS GIVING AND FORGIVING ALL THOSE WHO HAD HURT ME!
FORGIVENESS I GAVE TO ALL OF THEIR BAD DEEDS THAT WAS DONE ON TO ME!
ENOUGH OF ALL THIS PAIN AND SADNESS I AM FORCED TO ENDURE!
I HAD ENOUGH AND ENOUGH IS JUST TO MUCH FOR ME!
NO MORE TRUSTING AND HAVING FAITH IN THE PEOPLE AROUND ME!
FOR TRUST AND FAITH HAS BROUGHT ME
TO THIS BLACK AND EMPTY SPACE THAT I'M IN!
SO MANY I HAVE TRUSTED AND BELIEVED IN,
TO ONLY HAVE THEM LIE AND BETRAY ME!
THE FAITH AND TRUST THAT I ONCE GAVE SO EASILY
IS NOW NOT TO BE GIVEN SO CAREFREE!
THE FEELING OF UNHAPPINESS AND BEING USED,
HAS SEEM TO HAVE JUST CONSUMED THE PERSON THAT I ONCE WAS!
I HAVE TRIED SO HARD TO STOP FEELING THIS WAY, TO BELIEVE THAT
I TOO MAY FIND SOME LOVE AND HAPPINESS ONCE AGAIN!
EACH AND EVERY TIME I THOUGHT I COULD FINALLY GET OUT OF
THIS BLACK PIT THAT I WAS IN, IT NEVER FAILS FOR SOMEONE
IS ALWAYS THERE TO PUSH ME RIGHT BACK IN, ONCE AGAIN!
LIES AFTER LIES HAVE BEEN TOLD ABOUT ME!
BETRAYAL AFTER BETRAYAL HAS BEEN DONE TO ME!
IT SEEMS TO ME THAT THIS SHALL ALWAYS BE A PART OF MY LIFE!
SO IN THIS BLACK HOLE, IS WHERE I SHALL BE!
IN THE BLACK AND EMPTY PIT I SHALL ALWAYS BE IN!
FOR THIS IS THE LIFE THAT OTHERS HAVE MADE FOR ME.
July 8, 2004