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what's in a name I had three names the one in the middle never gave me a problem I did not mind it it was the two at either end that caused all the problems on the school yard there were sing-song games the kind of mean charades all new kids are loathe to play I had to find a strategy a means to opt out of the chicanery I had to find a way to reclaim my dignity in my own small mind each day in the classroom the little hands which gathered homework often tore mine up my zeros were piling up though I didn't really earn them a new idea nested in my head a call for a cloaked identity to be like the Scarlet Pimpernel I'd use my initials m a h then the true identity would remain protected and so would my papers I saw my grade point daily increasing and the internal pressure nozzle slowly being turned off I hadn't yet heard of something called an incomplete but soon enough the teacher began to question us who was this person signing with only their initials finally through the process of elimination I was found out but there was no recriminations she'd set aside all my initialed papers asked me quietly for an explanation I tried to tell her but I couldn't explain my shame which really wasn't my own gently she asked me what's in a name and then we had a long discussion where she asked me to think things through write about my feelings I obliged her as no one before had ever acknowledge me nor listened I felt valued after that for a month or so I switched easily between signing my name as Missy H to M Howells, according to whatever mood struck me. there were no recriminations after a month I permanently altered it to Melissa striking out forever the foul nickname which I had so long despised and never chosen I preferred the name I was given what's in a name perhaps some of us have the answer to that question more than others perhaps that is why some of us reinvent ourselves and choose only the name which speaks to us. Copyright August 7 2014 All Rights Are Reserved Solely By This Author Meloo/Melissa A Howells Straight from her (copyrighted) Tilt-a-World all prose/stories/rants/ideas/poetry are the legal property of this author Your visit here is greatly appreciated. Vote for this poem |
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