Learned Lesson From Heaven The Numb Should Have Earned®

But what will happen
when the healer that brings Peace,
takes a different spin
will its power too broken cease?!
When the healer needs healed
a lost soul can't even try,
with too much pain they yield
and give in to die!!
I know other loved ones have suffered loss
I know this all too well,
I was there with them to help them climb and cross
their mountains but I'm stuck down in hell!!
Some things can't be healed truly
they just exist in barely getting by,
most people can't really see
my all of the reason why!!
Then it comes to helping oneself
well that's easier said than done,
when that heart has no will broken on shelf
and too much outside help needed for that one!!
Pick yourself up by the bootstraps some say
well I don't wear boots so that too is hard,
it finds me struggling and then some any given day
when I've been dealt the hopeless card!!
Then most people also say there's Hope to come
well weight also broke the wagon down,
IF MAYBE there'd show just some
a hint of a smile might show thru painted on frown?!
But from living too numb so I digress
and to The Spiritual Masters turn,
TRYING to exist in this constant mess
waiting for Peace to heal so that I can prosper from it and learn!!
Well I guess I have more bridges to cross
but not a 1 mountain i can climb anymore,
for the strength to conquer them I'm at a loss
and those bridges getting too far away for sure!!
Feel sorry for myself yes I join that crowd
I feel I've at least earned that right,
reached out to those in need now I'm there for crying out loud
need a reason to stay here thru the endless dark day and night!!
That reason was suddenly taken
back 3 and a half years ago,
since then my referred to golden heart breakin
but I'm still here tho?!
{  When I Just Want To Throw Myself Over The Rainbow }
SALLY
P.S.
Can You Read Me Now:
Sometimes I go stark raving mad,
So never all angel And How
With plenty wrong I tend to focus on bad!
But sincerely my intentions are good
Oh Friends please don't let my pain be misunderstood!
I used to be so carefree
Overjoyed I couldn't hide,
Now all I do is worry
And you see my other side!
But sincerely my intentions are good
Oh Friends please don't let my pain be misunderstood!
At times I close myself off it's true
but it doesn't mean I think less of you,
We've all got heartache mine too much to take
But to punish caring souls I never meant to do
Cause you love me so ditto that's true blue!
And being human a safe bet
I'll make mistakes more than one,
Often I find myself in regret
For confusions made and done!
But sincerely my intentions are good
Oh Friends please don't let my pain be misunderstood!
SALLY PALLY

















And Bliss Isn't Bliss Without This....

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BUT LOVE STILL GROWING
BUT LOVE STILL GROWING