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MY SELF ESTEEM IS SO VERY LOW
MY SELF ESTEEM IS SO VERY LOW
I FEEL SO DULL WITH NO GLOW
I DO NOT EVER GET A GOOD REST
IN MYSELF I FEEL SO MUCH LESS
I DO NOT HAVE A HOME
I FEEL LONELY LOST AND ALONE
I'M NOT WORKING ANYMORE
WITH MY JOB 1 NOVEMBER I'M DONE
NOW MY EARNED INCOME IS NONE
I DON'T HAVE MY OWN PLACE TO LIVE
I GAVE UP MY HOUSE SO HALF MY EARNINGS I COULD GIVE
I'M TRYING MY BEST TO BE HAPPY AND LIVE
BUT IT HURTS WHEN HALF MY USMC RETIREMENT PAY
TO HER I GOTTA GIVE
I'M TRYING MY BEST TO THREAD THE NEEDLE
TO DO MY BEST FOR MY BILLS TO PAY
AND I'M SURVIVING ALL ON MY OWN SOME WAY
I LOST MY MOTIVATION TO WORK AND EARN MONEY
BEING DIVORCED IS NOT FUNNY
AS A MAN, EVERYTHING YOU LOSE
IT GETS YOU DOWN AND GIVES YOU THE BLUES
MY SELF ESTEEM IS VERY LOW
THAT MY WIFE OF 36 YEARS LEFT ME AND HAD TO GO
I KNOW I'M NOT A PERFECT MAN
BUT BY HER SIDE I DID ALWAYS STAND
AFTER ALL THESE YEARS
WHY DID SHE CHOOSE TO LEAVE
FOR ME ITS STILL HARD TO BELIEVE
SHE WON THE JACKPOT WITH ME
AND MY MONEY SHE DID RECEIVE
I FEEL SO BETRAYED
SO DECEIVED
I DO NOT HAVE ANY MOTIVATION
TO EVER WORK AGAIN
JUST SO HALF MY PAY
I CAN PAY HER THEN
EIGHT CHILDREN WE HAD TOGETHER
I STOOD BESIDE HER THROUGH ALL WEATHER
FOR SIXTEEN MONTHS NOW
I AM A DIVORCED MAN
WITH FAITH AND HOPE
I'M DOING MY BEST TO STAND
I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE FUTURE WILL BRING FOR ME
IN THIS WORLD
IS THERE SOMEONE WHO WILL LOVE AND ME SET ME FREE
I FEEL LIKE A FAILURE SO GREAT
TO BE A DIVORCED MAN
I NEVER WANTED AS MY FATE
SIXTEEN MONTHS NOW HAVE PASSED
MY MARRIAGE IS OVER AND DONE
MY SELF ESTEEM AND CONFIDENCE IN MYSELF IS NONE
I KNOW SHE HAS SO MANY ADMIRERS ON THE INTERNET
TO LEAVE ME I THINK SHE HAS NO REGRET
I ALWAYS THOUGHT TO MYSELF
THAT SHE WOULD COME BACK TO ME AND ADMIT SHE MADE A MISTAKE
BUT EVERY HOUR OF EVERY DAY
NOW I SEE FOR ALL THESE YEARS
HER LOVE HONOR AND COMMITMENT TO ME WAS FAKE
ALL THE CHILDREN NOW ARE GROWN
LIVING AS ADULTS ON THEIR OWN
I FEEL MY FAMILY IS BROKEN IN TWO
THAT'S WHAT MAKES ME FEEL SAD AND BLUE
FOR ALL MY LIFE I DID MY BEST TO CARE FOR MY CHILDREN IN LIFE
NOW I FEEL I'M BLEEDING BY HER BUTTERFLY KNIFE
MY SELF ESTEEM IS VERY LOW
I'VE NO MORE MOTIVATION TO WORK. TO GO.
I'M DOING MY BEST TO EXERCISE AND GET IN SHAPE EVERY DAY
I PRAY O LORD
PLEASE GUIDE THY WAY
ONE DAY I HOPE SOMEONE WILL LOVE ME JUST AS I AM
AND MAKE ME FEEL LIKE A BETTER MAN
2 NOVEMBER, 2014
I FEEL SO DULL WITH NO GLOW
I DO NOT EVER GET A GOOD REST
IN MYSELF I FEEL SO MUCH LESS
I DO NOT HAVE A HOME
I FEEL LONELY LOST AND ALONE
I'M NOT WORKING ANYMORE
WITH MY JOB 1 NOVEMBER I'M DONE
NOW MY EARNED INCOME IS NONE
I DON'T HAVE MY OWN PLACE TO LIVE
I GAVE UP MY HOUSE SO HALF MY EARNINGS I COULD GIVE
I'M TRYING MY BEST TO BE HAPPY AND LIVE
BUT IT HURTS WHEN HALF MY USMC RETIREMENT PAY
TO HER I GOTTA GIVE
I'M TRYING MY BEST TO THREAD THE NEEDLE
TO DO MY BEST FOR MY BILLS TO PAY
AND I'M SURVIVING ALL ON MY OWN SOME WAY
I LOST MY MOTIVATION TO WORK AND EARN MONEY
BEING DIVORCED IS NOT FUNNY
AS A MAN, EVERYTHING YOU LOSE
IT GETS YOU DOWN AND GIVES YOU THE BLUES
MY SELF ESTEEM IS VERY LOW
THAT MY WIFE OF 36 YEARS LEFT ME AND HAD TO GO
I KNOW I'M NOT A PERFECT MAN
BUT BY HER SIDE I DID ALWAYS STAND
AFTER ALL THESE YEARS
WHY DID SHE CHOOSE TO LEAVE
FOR ME ITS STILL HARD TO BELIEVE
SHE WON THE JACKPOT WITH ME
AND MY MONEY SHE DID RECEIVE
I FEEL SO BETRAYED
SO DECEIVED
I DO NOT HAVE ANY MOTIVATION
TO EVER WORK AGAIN
JUST SO HALF MY PAY
I CAN PAY HER THEN
EIGHT CHILDREN WE HAD TOGETHER
I STOOD BESIDE HER THROUGH ALL WEATHER
FOR SIXTEEN MONTHS NOW
I AM A DIVORCED MAN
WITH FAITH AND HOPE
I'M DOING MY BEST TO STAND
I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE FUTURE WILL BRING FOR ME
IN THIS WORLD
IS THERE SOMEONE WHO WILL LOVE AND ME SET ME FREE
I FEEL LIKE A FAILURE SO GREAT
TO BE A DIVORCED MAN
I NEVER WANTED AS MY FATE
SIXTEEN MONTHS NOW HAVE PASSED
MY MARRIAGE IS OVER AND DONE
MY SELF ESTEEM AND CONFIDENCE IN MYSELF IS NONE
I KNOW SHE HAS SO MANY ADMIRERS ON THE INTERNET
TO LEAVE ME I THINK SHE HAS NO REGRET
I ALWAYS THOUGHT TO MYSELF
THAT SHE WOULD COME BACK TO ME AND ADMIT SHE MADE A MISTAKE
BUT EVERY HOUR OF EVERY DAY
NOW I SEE FOR ALL THESE YEARS
HER LOVE HONOR AND COMMITMENT TO ME WAS FAKE
ALL THE CHILDREN NOW ARE GROWN
LIVING AS ADULTS ON THEIR OWN
I FEEL MY FAMILY IS BROKEN IN TWO
THAT'S WHAT MAKES ME FEEL SAD AND BLUE
FOR ALL MY LIFE I DID MY BEST TO CARE FOR MY CHILDREN IN LIFE
NOW I FEEL I'M BLEEDING BY HER BUTTERFLY KNIFE
MY SELF ESTEEM IS VERY LOW
I'VE NO MORE MOTIVATION TO WORK. TO GO.
I'M DOING MY BEST TO EXERCISE AND GET IN SHAPE EVERY DAY
I PRAY O LORD
PLEASE GUIDE THY WAY
ONE DAY I HOPE SOMEONE WILL LOVE ME JUST AS I AM
AND MAKE ME FEEL LIKE A BETTER MAN
2 NOVEMBER, 2014
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MY SELF ESTEEM IS SO VERY LOW
MY SELF ESTEEM IS SO VERY LOW