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Sometimes, i speak too much, when i have to hold back what to others. I want to really say
it makes me ramble on, to those i trust, when i cant tell those who i distrust--, what is on my mind, and what i feel, it makes me sick and weak, causes me, stress, and. Dismay

So i resort to pray
asking god, to help me through, this troubled time, of stress, and dismay

Let me be, quiet, and still
i think that today, nervously to those i trust they got of me there limit, and they-- are not thrilled

So i pray--, let me be--, still and silent
i know oh lord, that your-- love, care, and-- concern, is heavenly sent

When spoken words, i have to hold deep, within me and hide
it weakens me, hurts andf harms me, causing me to loose, self confidence and self pride

So i had to play the game--, and i did my best to show, grace and understanding
but look at me now, at the end of the day, i feel, ruined, destroyed, and-- as a bird, with a broken wing

I would of felt better, to be straight up front, honest and-- abrupt
but i know, when you hold your-- feelings back for a long, once the true feelings come out, its like a volcano erupts

So i told myself, that-- this day, it is not the time or place
still ahead of me--, i have to run a long race

I must focus on my health, 
as i know, that my health it is my wealth

I will not show any anger or rage
not right now, not right here at this stage

But with correct timing and-- tact
i will prove my point for-- definite-- sure, thats a fact

So, the others, may think and-- believe--, that all is well, that-- dad, is just dad, and all is swell
today, i chose grace abd understanding, did, my best to get along, play the game--, and-- communicate, i held back from them, and the truth of the  matter--, and really how i felt, from me the truth i  didnt-- tell

So now, let me be silent and still
i had enough grace and understanding for---this day, so as i pray, now   let god do his will

For me, as a father, with your older children, grown, and all so independant and on there own
when they disrespect you, it chills you to the bone

In the perfect timing and tact
when the time is right, i will. Address directly, to the point, each and everry fact

For now, let me stay, still and quiet
so i dont lash out in anger and rage, and say things i might latter regret

So in all communication,there will, be the perfect place and time
with perfect timing and tact, reason and rhyme

So let me for now, remain, very silent and still
this day of grace and understanding, playing the game--, i have got my fill

Let me be, calm, silent, and quiet
before i lash out and say what--i-- really feel, all the anger that i hold and hide inside ---because i know for sure, all communication--, would be ceased, over and done, and that would be my regret

So in life, as it may be, for me of a father of eight
the growing pains of being a dad, takes the life out of you, with stress, making-- you feel, so much less than great

But i remember my mom, and dad, how i respected them true
in each and in everything, all of my life, that i would do

Now, that both of my parents are now gone
with me in my heart, every minute of the day, for the rest of my live, they so lovingly belong

So i cant help to think, as im writing with this pen, of ink
when one day, i am gone, what will all of my children say and think

Do they realize, how they made me feel so very low
now that they are all grown, and in everything better than me--, they know

So this moment--,in time--
let me be, silent, calm and still
let me have faith, hold onto hope, and pray, to communicate gods will

By john d jungers
31. March. 2016

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