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From, my whole, family, i dont think, that, i -deserved-, there disrespect, then and now
i, -just- am -looking, -back -to -all -of -the--- years--and---years--and--years----, before, --and --this --EXACT---MINUTE--here -in -time, -if -i-DESERVED--THIS--DISRESPECT--, it -makes -me -feel,- UNSETTLED--and -i -dont- know -how-
But with, the coldness, now this moment that--i--feel
its like a movie projector, when in the middle of an old movie theater, the movie, stops, because of a broken reel
The tape has to-be rewound
has to be glued and spliced, once the torn, broken tape is found
Then the movie, again can resume
so, as with me with this disrespect, and coldness that i feel, i dont know when communication--, and heartful, warmness--- will begin, i dont know if or when, i just dont know, if and how soon
Really, as-a-father--, and as im reflecting and looking so far back, for seven children-- through all of-the-growing- pains,-- through all of these years and years
before and for so very long, -----my -ex -wife -her -disrespect, -and -neglect, ----and -all -seven- of -my -kids ---they-all -took -there-turns -and -are -taking -turns still -this -moment -today,---- it use to break me- up, ---making me suck it up, ---with my feelings stuffed up inside with deep lost bewildered pride, -- -and-alone- i-felt- cold to the bone, it brought me to tears
From, this whole family, i dont think that i ever deserved there disrespect, then and now
but this i now, know for ----ONE--HUNDRED----PERCENT--SURE---- i -will -not -feel -there -NEGLECT--, and- i -will -not -SUCK-IT-UP--i -will -not -STUFF-MY-FEELINGS--with -FOOD--- not -let -them -SPOIL --and -KILL--my--POSITIVE---MOMENTUM---i -will -not -get -DOWN----, WEAK--and---FROWN--and -FOREVER- I---will- never-- shed---another---HURTFUL-------REJECTED-----UNEXPECTED----PAINFUL--LONELY--TEAR--- --here----there----and----now----JUST-----NO---WAY--NO---HOW
By john d jungers
14--april--2016
i, -just- am -looking, -back -to -all -of -the--- years--and---years--and--years----, before, --and --this --EXACT---MINUTE--here -in -time, -if -i-DESERVED--THIS--DISRESPECT--, it -makes -me -feel,- UNSETTLED--and -i -dont- know -how-
But with, the coldness, now this moment that--i--feel
its like a movie projector, when in the middle of an old movie theater, the movie, stops, because of a broken reel
The tape has to-be rewound
has to be glued and spliced, once the torn, broken tape is found
Then the movie, again can resume
so, as with me with this disrespect, and coldness that i feel, i dont know when communication--, and heartful, warmness--- will begin, i dont know if or when, i just dont know, if and how soon
Really, as-a-father--, and as im reflecting and looking so far back, for seven children-- through all of-the-growing- pains,-- through all of these years and years
before and for so very long, -----my -ex -wife -her -disrespect, -and -neglect, ----and -all -seven- of -my -kids ---they-all -took -there-turns -and -are -taking -turns still -this -moment -today,---- it use to break me- up, ---making me suck it up, ---with my feelings stuffed up inside with deep lost bewildered pride, -- -and-alone- i-felt- cold to the bone, it brought me to tears
From, this whole family, i dont think that i ever deserved there disrespect, then and now
but this i now, know for ----ONE--HUNDRED----PERCENT--SURE---- i -will -not -feel -there -NEGLECT--, and- i -will -not -SUCK-IT-UP--i -will -not -STUFF-MY-FEELINGS--with -FOOD--- not -let -them -SPOIL --and -KILL--my--POSITIVE---MOMENTUM---i -will -not -get -DOWN----, WEAK--and---FROWN--and -FOREVER- I---will- never-- shed---another---HURTFUL-------REJECTED-----UNEXPECTED----PAINFUL--LONELY--TEAR--- --here----there----and----now----JUST-----NO---WAY--NO---HOW
By john d jungers
14--april--2016
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From all my family, i dont think that i deserved there disrespect-----then--and--NOW
From all my family, i dont think that i deserved there disrespect-----then--and--NOW