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I feel, worried, and have a heavy heart
tomorrow, night im on a bus to calfornia, then in the morn, of thursday, i will visit, my ex-wife, and dont know how to act. Or say, how to start

I dont feel still that im good enough for her
i didnt know, what to do, now am, not sure

So alot, runs through my mind this moment
as im recalling, the past going on.more than, three years alone, that i have spent

So i just dont know, what i feel
i guess im still hurting , quite a great deal

I know this moment, that she is so down, and low
as her mother, is in intensive care, in the philippines, as day by day, and failing so

So i will go to her side, 
and show my support the best that i can, and her to confide

She once was my bride
she was my wife and pride

But she deided me, to leave
it was hard for me to believe

But im now, , saving my life
on my own, without anyone, or a wife

I felt, wrongly, burned
how my  life,  happenings, upside down turned

I have accepted, that for us it was not meant to be
she wanted to move onto greener pastures and find others so much better than me

For so long, i felt so sad, bad that she did, me so wrong
but, i let go, and i let god, as i realized i just wasnt good enough for her to belong

But i heard her on the phone, and the brokeness in her tone and voice
i cant expect anything  if she wants me now, after everything else did fail, , then me as--her  last resort, and final choice

I must be strong, even though my HEART,  is burdened and heavy, i will show her financial, and moral support
and do my best of any  sort

Im feeling, still, kinda down, with frown
its been,about, three years now, since the divorce, and longer than that since she was with me, around

I feel, worried, now and have a heavy, HEART
but i will, not expect anything, i will, do my best to show support, will do my part

By john d jungers
17---may---2016

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