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MISUNDERSTOOD
in what i SAID, in what i didnt SAY, in what i DID, in what i didnt DO, or what IF I WOULD OF, what if i  SHOULD OF DONE, -and- what-to be done or said, to even make a difference -IF-- i --even--COULD

Its so EXHAUSTING, so EXHAUSTING
its so HAUNTING, so HAUNTING

Two of my girls are now on speaking --TERMS--and --AMENDS
but the other girl is so shattered so hurt, with despair, late last night her feelings of her brokeness she did to me--LEND

so here, i am this--MOURN
feeling troubled, frustrated and in the uncomfortable middle , exhausted, haunted and --WORN

As a father your children they just have no idea the stress and unfair pressure, they can and repeatedly, do put on the parent--YOU
it saddens you, wears you down, causes you, to frown, takes your energy zest, and life out of you, bringing you down very low, sad and --BLUE

Misunderstood
what did i say, what did i do, what, should i have done what , oh what else to do for me to be understood, for even,--if  --humanely possibly--i even--COULD

Its a dead end--STREET
its an impossible , unattainable, human --FEAT

These two girls just can never see eye to eye, and-- yes as the dad, it deeply makes me down and--SIGH


It saddens me so deep, these hurt feelings that i know and keep, i dont even have a tear left in my life, living, and love left to express my hurt and--CRY

I --know, --what-- my --younger-- daughter-- feels, --and --her --WIFE
they -feel- betrayed, -cut- and- hurt -as -with -a -blunt -and -unloving, -unaccepting,- uncaring,- unforgiving--KNIFE

For me the dad, and father OF-a total of seven, and our baby christina anne in the holy heaven, and divorced, i am doing my very best all on my--OWN
i told my daughter that just have PEACE, and  PRAY, and SHOW--LOVE, in your HEART, let the hurt and rejection and anger go, for i told her you kids all at least have SOMEONE -----to stand besides you,---- and i have seven kids now im doing my best to show my love , support, care, and understanding to, as  for me i have no one to stand besides me, FOR--i --am --all ---ALONE

Misunderstood
it leaves you feeling as a piece of unwanted, thrown out washed up on shore --OLD--UNWANTED--NOT--GOOD--ENOUGH-----DRIFT-- WOOD

For all these grown children of--MINE
 They know that each,  one of them they are all the brightness i have in my life and only--SUNSHINE

Im doing MY, best to be with them  ALL, help them ALL, and love them ALL the very best that i--CAN
but this moment in time, i feel, EXHAUSTED, and  HAUNTED, from being so MISUNDERSTOOD--MAN-- from --in--the--MIDDLE--of--ALL--of--these--kids--as--the--father--where--I--STAND

By john d jungers
16 th of AUGUST 2016


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Misunderstood