John's poems of...LIFE - LIVING &LOVE...JDJ
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Sometimes, your feelings you can only keep for yourself, and just-- WRITE
ive been so restless, and waiting to awake and get up this morning and simply WRITE, as i was waiting for the morning --SUN-LIGHT
So here i am, facing a brand new beautiful, sunny california --DAY
but feel, dark, and dreary in every which --WAY
My son, his accusations, arrogance, towards me still is not -over-and--DONE
For he made a call to me early this morn, a way past--ZERO--ONE
He said i need to ask you a serious --QUESTION
then says to me, all of his life he felt that i gave him love, affection, and attention, little to --NONE
He said to me if i really was even --his-- real--biological--DAD
he -felt -that -i -treated -him -so-much-less -and -that -made -me --very--SAD
HE--told --me -HE--is--GIFTED--and--HAS --SPECIAL--POWERS --from--GOD--and --can --see --THINGS
to --others --trouble-- he --consistantly-- does --BRING-----------------HE--can not admit, that it is HE, who has short comings, in-securities, and --grandiose-- psychotic, --delusions, --Of --grander-- as he believes he is the chosen one so --grand-- so--elite--and--GREAT
He believes that he has special powers so outstanding, and hes gifted as his --chosen--life--FATE
He will forget, when he falls, when he is backed up against the --WALL
those who came to his rescue and those who saved him, and helped him, and really--ENABLED--him, then when he is back up, he will attack them one and ALL
Oh this boy of mine, at --THIRTY-ONE
Last-- night-- at --0233"-- He --is --telling --me,-- that-- he --sees --things, --and --feels --that --i --never --loved --him -- as --great--as--the --others, --and --is --asking --me, --over--and--over--his -dad,-- if --he --really --is --my --very --own --biological--SON
He says he feels, my love for him, was different, and not the --exact--SAME
he --plays --with-- peoples--hearts--minds--and--- lives, --and --it --is --just --a --terrible--SHAME
He torches and he burns every bridge, and--The next time he falls, THIS--TIME-- HE--WILL-- REALIZE
no --one-- is --going --to --believe-- his ,-- UGLY,-- ILLOGICAL,-- CONCEIT, --ARROGANCE, --COCKINESS,-- BULLYNESS,-- know --it --all---- LIES
HE--CANNOT-- come--to--grips--with--or--ACCEPT-- that-- it --is --HE--who --needs --help --and --PROFESSIONAL--SUPPORT
I--thought--HE--hit--his--BOTTOM--and--felt--a--sliver--of--HOPE--but--it--is--CLEAR--his--BOTTOM--he--has--not--HIT----when others family members reach out to him and help, at first he plays the game, and accepts their rescue and support, until as recently he attacked my daughter and her boyfriend --then now again last night --ME--with conceit, arrogance and know it all, cut throat --ABORT
Man,--im--already--- SIXTY
and for sixteen years this kid, he has been doing, this to--this--FAMILY--and--ME
There- -is --not --a --word --to --another , --about --this-- that --i --wish --to --even --aloud ---SPEAK
I'm-- feeling-- such--- low ---energy, ---exhausted ---and ---weak, ---i ---just--- want ---to --close--- my ---eyes ---and---PRAY---, be ---alone--- SILENT,--- keep--- to ---myself,--- and --- FALL---to---SLEEP
By john d jungers
16th of october 2016
ive been so restless, and waiting to awake and get up this morning and simply WRITE, as i was waiting for the morning --SUN-LIGHT
So here i am, facing a brand new beautiful, sunny california --DAY
but feel, dark, and dreary in every which --WAY
My son, his accusations, arrogance, towards me still is not -over-and--DONE
For he made a call to me early this morn, a way past--ZERO--ONE
He said i need to ask you a serious --QUESTION
then says to me, all of his life he felt that i gave him love, affection, and attention, little to --NONE
He said to me if i really was even --his-- real--biological--DAD
he -felt -that -i -treated -him -so-much-less -and -that -made -me --very--SAD
HE--told --me -HE--is--GIFTED--and--HAS --SPECIAL--POWERS --from--GOD--and --can --see --THINGS
to --others --trouble-- he --consistantly-- does --BRING-----------------HE--can not admit, that it is HE, who has short comings, in-securities, and --grandiose-- psychotic, --delusions, --Of --grander-- as he believes he is the chosen one so --grand-- so--elite--and--GREAT
He believes that he has special powers so outstanding, and hes gifted as his --chosen--life--FATE
He will forget, when he falls, when he is backed up against the --WALL
those who came to his rescue and those who saved him, and helped him, and really--ENABLED--him, then when he is back up, he will attack them one and ALL
Oh this boy of mine, at --THIRTY-ONE
Last-- night-- at --0233"-- He --is --telling --me,-- that-- he --sees --things, --and --feels --that --i --never --loved --him -- as --great--as--the --others, --and --is --asking --me, --over--and--over--his -dad,-- if --he --really --is --my --very --own --biological--SON
He says he feels, my love for him, was different, and not the --exact--SAME
he --plays --with-- peoples--hearts--minds--and--- lives, --and --it --is --just --a --terrible--SHAME
He torches and he burns every bridge, and--The next time he falls, THIS--TIME-- HE--WILL-- REALIZE
no --one-- is --going --to --believe-- his ,-- UGLY,-- ILLOGICAL,-- CONCEIT, --ARROGANCE, --COCKINESS,-- BULLYNESS,-- know --it --all---- LIES
HE--CANNOT-- come--to--grips--with--or--ACCEPT-- that-- it --is --HE--who --needs --help --and --PROFESSIONAL--SUPPORT
I--thought--HE--hit--his--BOTTOM--and--felt--a--sliver--of--HOPE--but--it--is--CLEAR--his--BOTTOM--he--has--not--HIT----when others family members reach out to him and help, at first he plays the game, and accepts their rescue and support, until as recently he attacked my daughter and her boyfriend --then now again last night --ME--with conceit, arrogance and know it all, cut throat --ABORT
Man,--im--already--- SIXTY
and for sixteen years this kid, he has been doing, this to--this--FAMILY--and--ME
There- -is --not --a --word --to --another , --about --this-- that --i --wish --to --even --aloud ---SPEAK
I'm-- feeling-- such--- low ---energy, ---exhausted ---and ---weak, ---i ---just--- want ---to --close--- my ---eyes ---and---PRAY---, be ---alone--- SILENT,--- keep--- to ---myself,--- and --- FALL---to---SLEEP
By john d jungers
16th of october 2016
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Sometimes your feelings you can only keep to youself and only write
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