For the sake of our friendship;
pure sorrow mingled with tears,
mixing with hints of lonliness;
bubbling with feelings of hurt;
stirred with utter defeat and loss,
and even a pinch of bitterness,
must remain inside of me.
The intensity of emotions,
added by the physical longing,
and the mental comfort,
raging again Reality,
and a sound, sane mind,
must remain inside of me.
How long 'til I break down?
And everything comes forth?
But I must never allow it,
Never will I let you go, as my friend;
But my hand's already released you, as my lover;
Yet my wilful thoughts,
must remain inside of me.
My heart still clings on,
as my mind slowly unhooks you from its grasp;
Each jerking motion, painful;
Time, all I need is time;
to forget what you ever meant;
and to move on and our past love,
must remain inside of me.
I know that now,
we were never meant to be;
you were too good for me;
I'll never forget our love though;
I pray that nor do you;
and I'll treasure our memories that,
must remain inside of me.
I'll put on a facade,
of cheeriness and gaiety just for you,
if that's what you really want;
I'll laugh and treat you as a friend;
I'll be someone that I'm not.
Because who I truly am.........
must remain inside of me.
