so many pills i choke from the load
a normal life i never will know
i await death to relieve of the strain
uncomfortable life again and again
having to live each day within this
it is too much; i am the abyss
the incredible task of just being me
no longer part of society
my life to me now, it seems but a joke
those wishes and dreams i no longer invoke
i have no more hopes
i have no more will
each day slowly passes
i long for the kill
. . . or perhaps it's the pill?
the one that will work the one that is good
the one that helps me to live life as i should
all this misfortune is certainly mine
i chose it myself; i live it in time
a normal life i never have known
i was just born to suffer alone
. . . to live all alone
all alone on my own
all alone each day plays
each day that goes by
for my sins i must pay
my sins or my choices
they equal the same
same consequences
different names
i look in my hand
i cant stand them still
i gobble them down
each pill, lovely pill
why did i choose life to be this way
i want to go now i want an away
why do i stay i ask though i know
because of my choices i've no place to go
a normal life i never will know.
