focussing on you when Im driving my mind riptides

Thats what Ive said
when I'm driving
not steering, not thinking, not seeing
when I'm walking
loosing focus, just hopeless strolling on
when I'm talking
I don't see there eyes
there words are weightless
there touch looses energy
when I'm sleeping
I absorb your words
see your eyes
caress your touch
when I ask
whats to wait for?
how many times
can I live this same life?
how many cries
can I shed at night?
how do I know?
Its all hopeless
without knowing answers
that state there purpose
if its not to be
they can rape me
if my stars dint shine
we may never align
if it is not now
then when is it gonna be?