The great depression
In-Born Pain
I fight so hard to say how I feel, but always keep it locked inside,
And sometimes I feel so dead in here, I wonder if I'm still alive,
I am nothing but a hollow space, filled with words trying to escape,
Until one day I know I'll burst, and scream them all away.
(And then my heart burst today)
Because your words are like sharp needles, probing inside my heart,
And some of the things you say to me are tearing me apart,
And I thought that there was more to this, It is not meant to work this way,
I didn't think your words to me, could cause this much dismay.
I've always tried to speak to you, like I wish you would speak to me,
No insults hurled at you from afar, no harsh words to hear or see,
But respect doesn't mean the same thing anymore, or you never knew what it means,
And you beat me, hurt me, verbally, then turn around and leave.
And you kick me when I'm already down, and don't care about how it hurts,
I fight for peace every day, and still wonder if it is worth the work,
And the words will not fall onto the paper, but the tears still escape from my eyes,
And every single heartbeat is accompanied by the familiar sigh.
But you don't care about how you hurt me, you just care about yourself,
And I know I've become selfish, but I'm lost inside myself,
And I just want someone to notice, just ask if I'm okay,
Because to me it feels like nobody cares, that I'm still around today.
I'm sorry if I ask too much,
But I just want someone to say...
'I understand and I care'
Come back, I don't care
I want you here
With me, by my side
I would not fear
Of losing my pride
For I would be strong
Strong as an ox
And be able to sing
As now, I am free from my box
For once I was trapped
Wanting to hide
Feelings and emotions
Bottled up inside
I did not want love
I did not want pain
So what did I want?
Was I insane?
For it was me who was so distressed
Why could I not perform to my best?
No longer could I bare
The thought of me not to care
So there I was
Seeking for help
Would anyone understand
Why my life was so damned
At last I found someone
But why were they so hard to find?
For they were there with me
Every step, so close behind
It was due to my weakness
That I could see less
For this I am sad
For I did not see sooner
What I was turning into was bad
Some kind of luna
Tic goes the clockI realize my fateI have to change quick
Before it's too late
And sometimes I feel so dead in here, I wonder if I'm still alive,
I am nothing but a hollow space, filled with words trying to escape,
Until one day I know I'll burst, and scream them all away.
(And then my heart burst today)
Because your words are like sharp needles, probing inside my heart,
And some of the things you say to me are tearing me apart,
And I thought that there was more to this, It is not meant to work this way,
I didn't think your words to me, could cause this much dismay.
I've always tried to speak to you, like I wish you would speak to me,
No insults hurled at you from afar, no harsh words to hear or see,
But respect doesn't mean the same thing anymore, or you never knew what it means,
And you beat me, hurt me, verbally, then turn around and leave.
And you kick me when I'm already down, and don't care about how it hurts,
I fight for peace every day, and still wonder if it is worth the work,
And the words will not fall onto the paper, but the tears still escape from my eyes,
And every single heartbeat is accompanied by the familiar sigh.
But you don't care about how you hurt me, you just care about yourself,
And I know I've become selfish, but I'm lost inside myself,
And I just want someone to notice, just ask if I'm okay,
Because to me it feels like nobody cares, that I'm still around today.
I'm sorry if I ask too much,
But I just want someone to say...
'I understand and I care'
Come back, I don't care
I want you here
With me, by my side
I would not fear
Of losing my pride
For I would be strong
Strong as an ox
And be able to sing
As now, I am free from my box
For once I was trapped
Wanting to hide
Feelings and emotions
Bottled up inside
I did not want love
I did not want pain
So what did I want?
Was I insane?
For it was me who was so distressed
Why could I not perform to my best?
No longer could I bare
The thought of me not to care
So there I was
Seeking for help
Would anyone understand
Why my life was so damned
At last I found someone
But why were they so hard to find?
For they were there with me
Every step, so close behind
It was due to my weakness
That I could see less
For this I am sad
For I did not see sooner
What I was turning into was bad
Some kind of luna
Tic goes the clockI realize my fateI have to change quick
Before it's too late
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In-Born Pain
In-Born Pain
