This year especially, I could not wait to end
All year long I could not decide
Something was broken and needed to mend
I found myself wanting to hide
These feelings began in October
Moods suddenly swinging
Surely by now all this should me over
Such feelings were rapidly clinging
No control of when these feelings would appear
I myself tried hard to fight
Again no control, I fear
Truly I held on tight
These constant feelings still come my way
I now realize from my life you were removed
Lately these feelings have visited me every day
These feelings have not improved
We all left school each going separate ways
Waving good-bye until September
Each with hopes of enjoying long summer days
In the fall, summer vacation will be all we remember
My feelings have been no illusion
Grief and loss is what I have been feeling
I have come to the conclusion
That time and time alone will be my healing
My one and only brother suddenly passed in October 2006. Being an educator, I found it very difficult at school to get through each day. I wanted the school year to end. I found it hard to cope. I was mourning my dear brother. I felt that in time I would heal.
