Brotherhood Soulless package or just vain?
Whichever thence was claimed.
Inevitably, the same.
I seemed and became.
Under false pretenses.
Preferences - Pledged.
Parked, belief.
Entire thought.
Brother!
Separated family.
Desire and truth!
From one another.
Struck, a sudden wound.
A blow, poorly aimed.
Misdirected, at my heart.
Hit home - Lethal!
Hurt, as it should have.
A mistake, misdeed - I know.
Brought about you.
By stupidity, ignorance.
Mischance, oblivion...
Yet, it pained.
Wounded - Too much to bear.
Directed itself upon.
An already ailing heart.
Turned, a knife within it.
Relished its pain, with incredible joy.
It cut, deeper - Meaner!
Than I ever expected.
Ever thought, was intended...
Accidental - Incidental.
Incremental, indeed.
It still gnaws at me.
Mischievously gathers itself.
Within me...
Feeds on my pain, suffering.
Growing need!
An unlucky punch.
Unforgivable.
Which homed in.
In erring, it struck.
Lodged itself within me.
Should it be avenged?
Begrudged?
Or forgiven?
How good a man, am I expected to be?!
While, I know, recognize.
Its cause, missed intent.
I do struggle - I do feel.
Such pain - Such will.
Alagging...
Anagging hatred .
Of you!
Anger at thee.
Brother!!
For uttering, planting.
Such lies. Needless, careless.
Insidious - Futile seeds.
Of discord.
Doubt, misery and strife.
Where none ever weeded.
None ever needed to grow.
To forgive - I know.
Without forgetting.
Keeping all within my soul...
How can it be done?
I wonder - How can right?
Be met, accomplished.
When truth in one.
Anger in another.
Desire conflicted.
Forever muddled vies.
In both directions.
Closure thus lies?
I would love to hate you.
From this, brother.
I could justify much.
Of my own idleness.
Lack of cause.
But then obliged.
I remain, relied upon?
Required to feel, to be.
To love on - Forever on...
Feelings of duty, in need - It seems.
Cognition, appreciation failing indeed...
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