I've waited to feel love my whole life ,and all I feel I got was the knife stuck in the middle of my back .
I have a lack of interest in anyone these days ,I'm tired of the child's play ,the only game these lades know how to play .
So I stay to myself and try not to attract attention where ever I go ,and stay low to avoid the low blows .
But I do get led astray from time to time and find myself in over my head ,and at times left for dead in a bed I made .
I find it hard to tame my animal instinct after a long spell of being by myself ,and I always say "put me back on the shelf when you are done " but they always leave me with a loaded gun ,as they take every thing and run ,run ,run .
And of coarse I shoot myself in the foot so I do not run ,run ,run after them ,and for awhile my life goes dim ,but I know how to swim in my self pity .
And I start over swearing never to fall over that again ,but the insanity in me falls into the same trap again ,and again I shoot myself in the foot and swim through my pity party .
I'VE DONE THIS MY WHOLE LIFE even with my two EX-wife's who added to the game"knifes" ,now that was a crazy time in my life ,thinking I found the love of my life .
And that end in nothing nice ,made me learn to think twice I never want to feel rice being thrown on me ever again ,it should be a sin ,being jinx before your new life begins ,and that was before I learned to shoot myself in the foot or swim .
But we seem to get a little wiser as time ticks on ,as I learn to two step around the repeated words in my song and dance ,I do not give a second glance at these day's ,I'm two stepping all the way to the end with a insane grin .
And I count only one true friend in my life and that's me ,there is no we and there is no team ,and I no longer need a gun or feel the need to swim .And if I ever feel lonely ,I'll just pay her to leave ,that easy enough for me .
FEEL ME !!
