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Darkness Within Me
I feel empty
I feel as if I'm nothing.
I feel it eating slowly away at me,
this darkness within me.
My mind feels clouded
my emotions are gone.
I only feel anxious
and this fear that blinds me.
I'm not sure how I got to this point
but the cause must lie in my troubled past
a damaged childhood,
and a teenager who grew up too fast.
Adulthood isn't what I expected it to be
I can't move on from what I've been through
I don't trust easily.
I push everyone away
I never let anyone get too close to me.
All the heart breaks, all the lies
I feel as if love wasn't meant for me.
Maybe I don't deserve to be happy,
there's no happily ever after for me.
Even now I feel the depression
It's still there it's digging the hole,
It's deeper and it's full of all my anxieties
over flowing with my insecurities.
Will I ever overcome this nightmare?
Will I ever break down these walls?
Or will I always have this darkness within me.
Will I ever get to know what it's like to be living?
Copyright ©2017 Mandy Gtz
I feel as if I'm nothing.
I feel it eating slowly away at me,
this darkness within me.
My mind feels clouded
my emotions are gone.
I only feel anxious
and this fear that blinds me.
I'm not sure how I got to this point
but the cause must lie in my troubled past
a damaged childhood,
and a teenager who grew up too fast.
Adulthood isn't what I expected it to be
I can't move on from what I've been through
I don't trust easily.
I push everyone away
I never let anyone get too close to me.
All the heart breaks, all the lies
I feel as if love wasn't meant for me.
Maybe I don't deserve to be happy,
there's no happily ever after for me.
Even now I feel the depression
It's still there it's digging the hole,
It's deeper and it's full of all my anxieties
over flowing with my insecurities.
Will I ever overcome this nightmare?
Will I ever break down these walls?
Or will I always have this darkness within me.
Will I ever get to know what it's like to be living?
Copyright ©2017 Mandy Gtz
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Darkness Within Me
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