It hadn't even occurred to me I was telling the whole family of my business. I had wanted it to be private with you and messed up. I have heard from Silas but what he wanted was someone to get him out of a financial bind. Thinking I would be the one to do it. He says he still loves me but not able to provide for me. He doesn't realize I would be able to help him. If we were together. for I would leave here at the nursing home. I should be able to do that on my own and not have to remain here. I know the rest of the family will hear or see this but that is okay. Maybe I can get some feedback from interested parties like yourselves. I come to you for I see in you my family of the both of you. i do love you dearly. I hope you know that. You are a great couple and I wish only the best of everything for you. cubby