My dear friend and brother, my heart is hurting thinking of you now with the depression you have going on inside of you. You mean so very much and you are most needed here on this site and in my life as a brother poet and friend. I do pray that you will get away from the depression and allow Jesus to shine for you again and to build you up. It breaks my heart to think you'd do the unthinkable if you were thinking this way and ridding yourself of the pain. It isn't worth it and it is a deteriment to your well being. Hang in there for us and mainly for yourself. YOU ARE NEEDED BY US HERE AT POETRYPOEM.COM. and you are needed by me. Love to you and prayers, cubby