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The monster/s of my past fed me the poison behind my first two books. I surrendered to pen and paper, we are now constant companions... And so I began to move my hand and it felt good to ventilate and eject the pain that was suffocating me! 1000's of fragments are now of paper. I began writing in 2004 the usual scribbles of woe is me. At that particular time, I believe I had every right, to fling this damage upon paper, and to rid my belly of misery's parasite! Poetry poem I happened upon by accident and here I began to reveal nightmares! To date I no longer extend my hand in malice, though occasionally I will rage for reason... I am called by society: "A victim of violent crime" Though today "I am a survivor" Several years back, I became the target of a sociopath stalker and there I survived a brutal week long attack! Ladies you can imagine and Gents, it was not only rape and mauling, he tortured me with razors, fire and bondage! In end, this evil man attempted to take my last breath by stabbing me savagely; I escaped barely by possum chance, left with scars upon my flesh and mental being. Today I suffer extreme PTSD abbreviated for: Post Traumatic Stress Disorder- and I may very well have this condition for life as it does not lesson for me. This is the condition that our war veterans came/come home with after enduring war and death! It has been 7 years past, since my near demise, though I revisit that place without fail, in memory and dreams, not by choice or self pity. Near death experiences I believe, can and will rewire your thoughts and your human character. I am not the same women, who centered that blood bath, I am very in-tuned with life and suffering of others. I am extremely concerned for the future of our nations children; I sense great doom if we do not make colossal changes of every aspect within our lives and for this earth. I fear we may be near too late? My eyes are wide with worry, for we are crawling against time... Religions need to come together, nations need to drop their arms and stretch out their palms with alms for the poor and suffering! I am so moved by my sensitive intuition, that I am becoming a reborn christian in your eyes. Though I have always been spiritual, I do not fall under mans religion/church, he has divided Gods creations, with biblical/political warfare! History repeats itself, because of divided men... I pray we be saved- Take heart and lend thought to what I have spoken here. Be blessed, Abby For those interested: I have 3 books published, truth is they are not of schooled skill. They are poorly written, Not including anthology "love poems that don't suck" My tantrums were born by desperate, livid screams of my being, searching for balm to soothe inward wounds... Expression heals- I rhymed most poems in my first books and if anything, they surely helped me vent and to occupy my time. :) Besides I was ignorant to any other way to write. o_0 lol Today I prefer to write without restrictions and so I have fallen in love with free/verse. I am deeply drawn to rich textured word/art. Today I am somewhat addicted to writing. lol "Prose/Rhyme/Poetry" I enjoy all styles of written art! Though my new found child is free verse, I love to manipulate word and reason. Writing has become my adopted child, she will come and she will find a place within me, I gently give her to the world and another will come to live... I do not consider myself "Poet" I believe I am more of a philosopher? I am not educated in writing at all, I do however have moments, where words need to be written at the oddest hours. o_0 In the near future, I will have 3 more books that will be published; I have been offered a contract in another country, though due to lack of communication? and cross globe location? I have decided to decline their offer... For my readers of past and future, thank you for your generous support and for those who are interested in my new materials available here on line I have already documented my copyright to all in view through "The library of congress" Upon which I can now make you Microsoft Cd's with selected works. Until then I am taking my time to find a suitable source for my next publisher... Any and all inquiries, please leave me your interests in the feed back option, which is located beneath every poem... Your contact info. is important if you want me to reply. My first books that birthed my better writing today are available all around the world! All major book stores carry them, on line stores as well! Target has recently purchased my books. lol In all honesty, they are not up to par with my standards today but hey sometimes raw and ragged makes for an interesting read lol Please do not take me wrong, I am not at all arrogant, I am however aware of self improvement... Click "poetry" on the left side bar for book info. Well wishes, Abby