I wrote this in 2007_______________________________________________________________________________________
How could i get closer to you when you kept everything on mute
Like a mouse trapped under human skin
We know your alive because you breathe, cough, sneeze, fidget, yawn, snore or clear your throat
If your hurt your body responds
If your happy you may laugh
With everyone your halo shone through only not with me
Its like you were controled
If sound was unwanted it can be adjusted on computers, phones, radios and tv
I wanted to hit you just to see how you'd respond
I tried to smash down the breakdown in communication
I kept banging into walls that never respond
They only echoed in hopelessness
A doll i could pull a string or flip a switch and it'll talk
I'll pull a dummy to hear a cry
All i need is some batteries, doesn't matter what brand coz they all the same
Nobody could hear me crying SOS
Serious breakdown in communication
SOS seriously over stressed
I couldn't change your ways
You'd hit me, you'd shout, but i wanted communication
I was young i wanted attention
Everybody else got what i deserved
Did you ever consider us hitched
You weren't a man you were like a maniquin
Serious breakdown in communication at least a maniquin makes a statement and if they came to life they'd make a woman look good
You did neither inside or out
When you want me you'd push all the buttons
I was always hoping
Except i never gave up
Everything from the past i flushed away starting new
I was such a fool it was Truce after Truce after Truce making chance after chance after chance
Until i cried myself to sleep
Blood pressure a mountain high
Depression a fever
I'm a human who realized this'll never work
I couldn't live like this
One sided coz your the only one who's content, but you never considered my feelings
You didn't even care when i left
Until you realized what you had as some would say coz they see the halo i never saw
I know why you came back
Either you didn't want to deal with the issues regarding the divorce or you couldn't hold yourself from sin
I aint your bimbo
I don't wanna re- marry a manniquin
You can fool everyone with that halo, but you can't fool me
i'm the only one who sees you truly for who you are
You lost the best thing that ever happened to you
I'm so sorry to disappoint
I just can't live like this and i'll never go back to that ever again no matter how much you give
Doesn't even matter what you give
coz this break down in communication will only lead us back to square one and you know it
So stop denying a natural fact of life
If you honestly cared you'd never lie to get me or treat me so badly and really show your love and sincerely care for me
You'd love me as much as i deserved to be loved
So it is your lost i wanted to be your everything and i tried
You let the SBIC break us apart
I told you everything on one piece of paper
You didn't even care to respond
You fooled everyone, but yourself
