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" SUNNY SIDE SIDE UP"

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"CANCER. UPON REFLECTION...."

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"REVISED"      " CHAPTER 2" " CANCER" " I STEPPED OUT OF THE DARKNESS, BACK INTO THE LIGHT, MY CHANGE OF LIFE BLESSING...."

I BEGAN TO PRAY TOO THE CREATOR/GOD FOR HELP, TO PLEASE NOT LET ANYONE IN MY FAMILY FIND ME LIKE THIS, THINKING TO MYSELF, THIS IS NOT THE WAY I WANT TO LEAVE GREAT GRAND MOTHER EARTH....

ALL MY PRAYERS WERE HEARD, MY NEXT STEP WAS TO DO SOME "SELF TALK". "FOUND IN THE WALKING ON THE REDROAD 12 STEP PROGRAM, SO I COULD SLOW MY HEART RATE DOWN TO NORMAL, THAT ALSO WORKED...."

NEXT, HOW WAS I GOING TO GET OUT OF BATHROOM? WITH NO FEELING WHAT SO EVER ON LEFT SIDE OF BODY? IT WAS COMPLETELY NUMB? " SELF TALK AGAIN HELPED ME OUT GREATLY AGAIN. IT HELPED ME COME UP WITH A PLAN ASAP FROM WHAT I LEARNED IN THE TALKING CIRCLE COURSE ABOUT THE 12 STEPS OF "WALKING ON THE RED ROAD OF WELLBRIETY....".

NOW I HAD DIRECTION ON WHAT I COULD DO. FROM BIG BOOK. " I WAS IN THE WORDS WE WILL INTUITIVELY KNOW HOW TO HANDLE SITUATIONS THAT USE TO BAFFLE US...."

"+ "LET GO AND LET GOD...."

TOO NAME A FEW NYA WEH =THANKS IN THE SENECA LANGUAGE, GRINS

MY PLAN WAS TO USE MY FEET, TO PUSH 200LBS. DOWN THE BATHROOM WALLS AND HALLWAY WITH MY LEGS THE 30 FT. I HAD TO GO AND UP 1 STEP TO REACH THE PHONE....

THE CREATOR HELPED ME STAND UP WITH LEVERAGE ON MY RIGHT SIDE OF BODY TO GRAB THE PHONE TO DIAL 911....

I EXITED THE HOUSE TO GET OUT OF GARAGE, IT WAS A BLESSING TO WAIT FOR EM-T'S....

29 HOURS INTO ER STAY, I HAD NO CLUE WHAT HAD HAPPENED TO ME. MY FAMILY SHOWED UP FROM OUT OF TOWN, THEN I STARTED TO GET SCARED, WHEN AT 51 HOURS, I WAS TRANSPORTED TO R.P.I.O.C. WHY WERE THE PEOPLE WALKING IN WITH DRAWN OUT FACES HOLDING BACK THE TEARS?

I GOT OUT OF BED TO LOOK FOR MYSELF. AND I WAS A VERY WHITE ASH COLOR. I THINK PEOPLE WERE THINKING MY TIME WAS UP AND I WAS GOING OUT THE DOOR FAST....

FROM THE BIG BOOK & WALKING ON THE RED ROAD OF WELLBRIETY IT HAS A PASSAGE OF " I DID NOT KNOW WHAT I DID NOT KNOW" TO "NOW I KNOW WHAT I DID NOT KNOW...."

I WAS TOLD 3RD. DAY INTO HOSPITAL STAY THAT MY WHOLE HEAD WAS FILLED WITH MULTIPLY TUMORS EVERY WHERE. RADIATION STARTED THE NEXT DAY, FITTED ME FOR A MASK, AND HAD A PORT PUT IN MY CHEST FOR BLOOD TRANSFUSIONS OR BLOOD DRAWS, NO MORE BEING A PIN CUSHION....

SOME OF THE SIDE EFFECTS FROM RADIATION ARE? DRY EARS, SWOLLEN EYE'S LIKE SOMEONE JUST PUNCHED YOU OUT, SCRATCHY RED EYE'S, BURNING EYE'S, HEAD ACHES, SUNBURN TO FOREHEAD AND NECK AREA/PEELING....
THROAT BURN, "LIKE SOMEONE CUT YOUR THROAT OPEN" - RAW - STUFFY DRAINING NOSE, COUGHING UP YUK, FORGETFULNESS, LITERALLY LOSING OF THOUGHT, WHAT YOU JUST SAID ON THE PHONE 5 SECS AGO....

FRUSTRATION! 3 MORE WEEKS OF RADIATION EVERYDAY....

THOMAS IS THE TYPE OF PERSON WHO CAN GET MAD AT HIMSELF AND MAKE HIMSELF DEPRESSED WITH ALL THE HURT HE ALLOWED INSIDE....

THOMAS WILL BEAT HIMSELF UP GOOD, REALLY GOOD INTO 2 WEEKS OF "SELF WILL RUN RIOT" FROM BOTH 12 STEP BOOKS....

IN LANCE ARMSTRONG'S BOOK HIS MOTHER QUOTES AS SAYING "THIS NEW OBSTACLE IS JUST A CHALLENGE"
IT'S TURNING A NEGATIVE INTO A POSITIVE" I GOT IT THEN, WHEN YOU LEAVE THIS ARIES WITH A CHALLENGE, YOU JUST FED HIM WITH A FEAT THAT WILL NOT BE STOPPED, UNTIL I CONTINUE TO FIGHT THE GOOD FIGHT, THE CHALLENGE 4EVER! SO, THAT'S IS WHAT I BEGAN TO DO EVERYDAY, EVERY SECOND, 1 DAY AT A TIME + 18 YEARS OF BEING A GRATEFUL RECOVERING ALCOHOLIC HAS HELPED ME....

ON NOVEMBER 11TH. 2009 I WOKE UP TO THE SUN, WARMED MY HEART + I SMILED, MY SPONSOR CAME OVER AND WE WERE FACE TOO FACE IN MONTHS, I WAS FORBIDDEN TO GO TO ANY MEETINGS, OR TALKING CIRCLES, OR DRUM CIRCLES, OR POW WOWS, OR SUNDANCES, OR SWEAT LODGES DONE THE CORRECT WAY, THE SIOUX LAKOTA WAY....

NO FEES FOR A GIFT OF HEALING AND SPIRITUALITY, NO ONE GETS SICK, MY SPONSOR AND I TALKED AS I ATE BREAKFAST 1ST. TIME IN MONTHS, THEN WE WENT OUT GOLFING IN THE BEAUTIFUL SUN, I HAVE NOT LOOKED BACK, WE LAUGHED WITH HIS BROTHER AND I FOR OVER 3 HOURS, JUST WHAT THE DR. ORDERED
I HAD NOT A WORRY IN LIFE AND I STILL DO NOT, EVERYDAY IS AWESOME JOURNEY....

PURE SPIRITUALITY,JOY, LAUGHTER, BLESSING OF A TIME. I AM WELL ON MY WAY, AND I WILL STAY THIS WAY ALWAYS. I AM DOING GREAT OR AWESOME....

I WENT BACK TO MY HOME GROUP AND WHAT A SURPRISE I GOT THERE. IN 3 DAYS, 450 PEOPLE GREETED ME WITH HUGS AND WELL WISHES. JUST UNREAL, I NEVER KNEW HOW MANY PEOPLE MISSED ME AND OR LOVED ME.... GRINS

JUST WANTED TO SAY THANKS TO THE "EYE OPENER AT 7:30 AM EVERYDAY IN CLARENCE NY....
AND FOR BEV SUGGESTING I WRITE MY STORY TO THE GRAPEVINE....

SPECIAL THANKS GOES OUT FOR MY MOTHER BARB AND HER SWEETHEART JOE L....
MY KID SISTER SAUNDRA WHO HELPS ME EVERYDAY,MY SPONSOR AND HIS WIFE AND ALL THE LOVED FRIENDS IN MY LIFE, WITHOUT YOU ALL THERE IS NO THOMAS....

"IT'S NOT ABOUT THE BIKE" IS LANCE ARMSTRONG'S BOOK. MY JOURNEY BACK TO LIFE...."

WALKING ON THE RED ROAD OF WELLBRIETY WAS SAVING MY LIFE OVER AND OVER AGAIN....

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