I've lost my self-confidence and since I've gotten older I can't seem to find it.... I feel useless, unwanted and unappreciated, my heart is broken and this lack of attention is driving me crazy. I've search for love within his eyes, I'm in anticipation to taste his smile. I tried just about everything to wake the love in his heart. but I believe death has taken over his love and now we're drifting apart.
I'm afraid to face the fact that he don't want me anymore, our laughs and our sweet nothings he no longer adores. I try to hide the tears that wells up in my eyes, I hide my deepest feelings and put on a happy disguise. while all the time dying inside to be loved
I thought i could go on forever like this, but every time i see couples in love kiss, I realized all the beautiful love I miss. and I sometimes wonder do love for me exist.....maybe...maybe not