A New Woman - BE A LIFE BUILDER

There is no more decency
It just keeps getting worse
I don't even wanna try no more
Two long term relationships
Have me running scared
Wanting to fall into a black hole
Where i know there is a scientic explanation of never existing again
Coz i will rot to death
But i wanna stay and live like a good person who i am
It would be a shame if i went because my friends would be hurt
Even more i'll lose them and my family
My family will be more distraught than anyone and they would need me so much
If i got heaven my dad may he R.I.P would be so disappointed in me for giving up for two evil men who never deserved me in the first place
My friends say i'll end up in rehab for being with the wrong person and i agreed
I never find the right people
I am always taken advantage of and used
I only have my family and real friends who stand by me and love me deeply for who i am
They understand me and i need them as much as they need me
I no longer care about dumbass evil people
Bullies no longer i am in fear of
So why am i always in fear of heart break
I think its so painful when you know you're a greatly very gentle hard loving kind person with only good intentions as everyone seems so happy when you're around
So why is this not enough why do they have to get everything else out of you too
Why can it not be enough that someone has a pure clean very loving open heart
Its not just women who suffer its men too
Some are with the most evil women that ever walked the planet and try so hard and their efforts are ignored completely
Or they're digged of their gold by evil greedy women
But men can be gold diggas too
This world would be great if two people understood eachother had so much in common and could face the world together as its harder to walk on your own
But you'll always have family and friends
Build a relationship with them and then work on the rest
Sort out your education and do something with yourself and be proud of who you are
It will make life so much easier and you'll become a better person as you won't feel so bitter
If you got a job then work harder get promoted
If the job was short lived keep looking and keep getting experience until you've got to where you need to be
Never give up on yourself
Be your pilot guide yourself and let everything fall into place beautifully