I know that the world has its boundaries. It has its cultural differences, rules, so on & so forth. But I am a woman with a BIG heart. I will always be grateful to my first husband, Griffyn... he opened the world to me. My bisexuality, my polyamoury, paganism... all were processes for giving names to thing my heart felt were larger than the definitions of the world.
Over the years I have seen people, friends, family, fall in love... some stay together, some grow apart, or fall apart... but Manea's are FOREVER. I have NEVER stopped loving anyone I have ever fallen in love with.I may have let some go because that was the most loving thing to do... but stopped? Never.
I have friends who are married, but I love them with all my being; I have friends that are serial monogamists, and are only with me between relationships; I have friends whom I love who are straight, love me back, but not in THAT way;it doesn't matter. I love them all and will never stop. call me at 3 am, it doesn't matter. Call me 10 years later and we've never spoken, for me it is as if no time has passed.
I understand when there are boundaries, and I respect them, but once I fall for you... (in some cases I only have to meet you once briefly) then forever more, I would do anything for you... if it is in my power to do so.
Even if that person spites or scorns me... I will be waiting at the gates of the afterlife to embrace you, if it takes that long to understand how much I have always loved you.
This isn't a stalker kind of love, but patient, long burning, forever, forgiving, understanding, respectful.... my heart leaps every time I see or think of you kind of love, and I often even though it may have been years. Since I have had near death experiences I know that such thoughts are like little time capsules you will get like a surprise bouquet of flowers at the end of your life... and I pick each thought like a knowing flower you will get to see then.
Relatively speaking, I don't fall in love with everyone, but a lot in comparative standards for humans. I care deeply about everyone. I know its not reciprocal. I live with that. BUt if I am in love with you, lol... you really have no choice in the matter... my heart loves whom it will, time is irrelevant, if you are married or single, is irrelevant, if you deserve it or not is irrelevant...
YOU ARE LOVED. PERIOD. FOREVER.
Just felt the need to express this because 3 people I love... have their hearts in other directions... and felt the need to explain... I will always love you, no matter what. I will always be here for you, no matter what... I will always be...
