My life passes me by day after day.I think about life and death and my nephew trey. I ask my momma what's my purpose for being on this earth. She said to me god had a plan for me from the start of my birth. I sit with this pain and pressure, I don't think I can handle it.sometimes I feel like erasing myself from the face of the planet. I been having these same feelings for like a good damn while. Every since she lied and said judge he's done nothing for his child. Now these thoughts here sinking in my head further and further. Like who the hell are the people putting things in the head of my daughter. Oh father, What should I do when the judicial system failed. Judge saying he gone throw my sorry butt in jail. These trials I'm going through makes me want to give it all up. But for the sake of my daughter I got to be the only grown up. I'm blown up in a rage this mess is making me mad. Hearing in the streets that I'm such a dead beet dad. So sad, Thinking now and then you think this world so strange, but there's no difference in it only its the people who changed. I get drunk in my sorrows, Making these painful thoughts leave my mind. Till reality hits putting my head back in this twine. Of these painful thoughts in my room wiping tears from my eyes. As I think about this life as sit and watch as it passes me by