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I KNOW YOU ARE DISSAPPOINTED WHEN YOU LOOK AT ME

I KNOW YOU ARE GREATLY DISSAPPOINTED WHEN YOU LOOK AT ME:
WHEN I LOOK AT YOUR EYES THAT I CAN SEE:
I SURVIVE WITH THIS EATTING DISORDER TRYING TO BREAK FREE:
FOR MY WHOLE ADULT LIFE IT HAS HINDERED ME:
SOMETIMES THE HIGHER I CLIMB THE HARDER I FALL:
ITS LIKE RUNNING FULL BLAST STRAIGHT INTO A WALL:
I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I REALLY DO CARE:
WITH YOU THIS SIMPLE POEM I WANTED TO SHARE:
IT SOUNDS SO EASY JUST EAT LESS AND LOOSE MORE:
WHAT AM I STRUGGLING FOR:
WHY IS THIS SUCH A GREAT CHALLENGE FOR ME EACH AND EVERYDAY:
I BELIEVE IN A HIGHER POWER AND I CONSTANTLY PRAY:
MY WIFE AND SEVEN KIDS THEY DONT UNDERSTAND WHY THIS WEIGHT I JUST CANT LOOSE:
WHY TO CARRY AN EXTRA 200 POUND BURDEN DO I CHOOSE:
TO MYSELF I KNOW ONE DAY EFFORTLESSLY ALL THIS WEIGHT I WILL LOOSE:
NO MORE FEELING THESE BLUES:
MAYBE THERE IS STILL UNFINISHED BUSINESS ON HAND:
LEAVING ME FEELING MUCH LESS THAN GRAND:
ISTILL FEEL STRESS AND HURT INSIDE:
STILL I HAVE A DEEP LOSS OF PRIDE:
I CANT EXPLAIN TO NO ONE REALLY HOW I FEEL:
MY ONION I AM NOT READY TO PEEL:
BEFORE YOU CAN HEAL THE PROBLEM OUTSIDE YOU FIRST HAVE TO HEAL YOURSELF FROM WITHIN:
IN EVERYTHING PAIN TRAUMA PTSD AND EVERY AND ALL ADICTIONS AND DISORDERS UNTIL YOU ARE READY TO PEEL YOUR ONION YOU CANT WIN:

28--AUGUST--2010:
JOHN D. JUNGERS


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I KNOW YOU ARE DISSAPPOINTED WHEN YOU LOOK AT ME