A New Woman
Waiting in heaven for us
I am so afraid
Of my own mistakes
It aint making them and learning from them
Its everyone belittling me
Making me feel so damn low for a simple mistake
Its hard to always learn
Its hard for me i know in the past i've been so naive
People have taken so much advantage
Its a matter of time
You all gotta learn its in the hands of the al-mighty
I am afraid to be loved again
What if he aint the right one
I don't want people to find him for me
I don't want you to suggest i try
I aint ready now i want the guy who is made from my rib
The al-mighty made a woman from a mans' rib
I will wait until he comes
I don't need to find him
If he belongs with me
He will come to be with me
I will be the only woman right for him
I will be the one closest to his heart
I will generate his missing heat
I will be his air when things get too much
I will be something nobody else can be
He will be my knight in shining Armour
He will carry me
He will cherish me as i will him
He will be my treasure
He'll be the one as two have already failed
Can't you see i had made these mistakes
I could handle the heart break
Its been so hard, but i am dealing with this and with all i have
I don't need more 3rd degree lectures
I'm not afraid of waiting
I am afraid of making another mistake just because i feel time is running out for me
I am young, but will i still be pretty at 30
If he doesn't come then will i be wrinkled in mid 30's
I may not be able to have children will anyone accept me
Its such a hard thing to accept
I am not afraid, but i may not be able to adopt because of my condition
This will be even harder
Time is a valuable thing i don't even mind spending the rest of my life with my mommy who i love so much
When she is gone I'll stay with my sister's
There are enough kids in the family to keep me busy for the rest of my life
The disabilities the issues i have in my life
I can have a short fuse which is one thing i hate about myself
Every day and night of my life i am trying to change it
It works, but when something gets to me its an explosion
If its small its a spark
If it is big its a shocker
All i can do is wait and i know patience is the key for everything
I even know that if i never find him here he will be waiting in Heaven for me and every other woman who hasn't had her knight in shining Armour
Of my own mistakes
It aint making them and learning from them
Its everyone belittling me
Making me feel so damn low for a simple mistake
Its hard to always learn
Its hard for me i know in the past i've been so naive
People have taken so much advantage
Its a matter of time
You all gotta learn its in the hands of the al-mighty
I am afraid to be loved again
What if he aint the right one
I don't want people to find him for me
I don't want you to suggest i try
I aint ready now i want the guy who is made from my rib
The al-mighty made a woman from a mans' rib
I will wait until he comes
I don't need to find him
If he belongs with me
He will come to be with me
I will be the only woman right for him
I will be the one closest to his heart
I will generate his missing heat
I will be his air when things get too much
I will be something nobody else can be
He will be my knight in shining Armour
He will carry me
He will cherish me as i will him
He will be my treasure
He'll be the one as two have already failed
Can't you see i had made these mistakes
I could handle the heart break
Its been so hard, but i am dealing with this and with all i have
I don't need more 3rd degree lectures
I'm not afraid of waiting
I am afraid of making another mistake just because i feel time is running out for me
I am young, but will i still be pretty at 30
If he doesn't come then will i be wrinkled in mid 30's
I may not be able to have children will anyone accept me
Its such a hard thing to accept
I am not afraid, but i may not be able to adopt because of my condition
This will be even harder
Time is a valuable thing i don't even mind spending the rest of my life with my mommy who i love so much
When she is gone I'll stay with my sister's
There are enough kids in the family to keep me busy for the rest of my life
The disabilities the issues i have in my life
I can have a short fuse which is one thing i hate about myself
Every day and night of my life i am trying to change it
It works, but when something gets to me its an explosion
If its small its a spark
If it is big its a shocker
All i can do is wait and i know patience is the key for everything
I even know that if i never find him here he will be waiting in Heaven for me and every other woman who hasn't had her knight in shining Armour
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Waiting in heaven for us
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