I don't understand
and not sure that I ever can
Something held so precious
ripped from my life again
They were but a toddler and babe
when first held just out of my reach
I sat at a distance to say goodbye
my voice not allowed its speech
There was not allowed
Nana loves you so
I had to just sit and watch
the the two little ones go
My heart was selfishly ripped
and left to bleed
No sign of care for the little ones
or of their need
The years did pass
our bond she could not break
My precious little ones from me
she could not take
The love we shared
survived her wrath
but once again
I walk the same path
My years are few
to regain what is once again lost
My heart daily breaks anew
the pain I bear is too great a cost
With each new day
no smiles only frowns
Oh God I beg of you
please send in the clowns.