I gave up today
I was driving
Down the road
Alone,
On a cold
Crisp fall night.
The future
And all the
Responsibilities
Of graduating
Are bearing
Down on me,
A future,
Many futures
And the choices
Facing me,
I finally decide
Upon one…
The one so many
Signs have pointed
To,
Gently
And
Not so gently,
All along
The road,
And not just
The one
I'm driving on.
When I am
Genuine with
Myself
And the universe
The tears
Flow freely,
Honestly,
And
Right now
I am honestly
Giving up.
It takes too
Much energy
To fight
Myself
And the future.
Sometimes
Givin' up
Isn't a bad
Thing,
And
I don't believe
In such
Notions anyway.
Ultimately
All roads lead
To the top
Of the mountain.
There are no wrong
Ways
Only long and
Longer ways.
Today I gave
Up the longer road.
“Beloved”
I said,
With trepidation
And a weariness
That comes
With being
Tired from treading
Water
For WAY
Too long,
“I'm yours.
I'm going to
Stop fighting
You down,
And me down
From all that
You would have
Me Be.”
All the dreams
People have
Had
Of me.
All the things
Humanity
Has cried
For silently
And together.
All the love
And power
We have
Ever dared
To dream,
I give up
Fighting what
I could be,
To embrace
Not who
I could be,
But who
And
What I have
Always been,
Your Beloved,
Made manifest.
See?
Giving up
Sometimes means
Letting love
In
Instead of
Fighting to keep
It out,
For fear
It may someday
End.
The End
Is the lie.
Givin' up
Is
Accepting
Your Divinity,
And that acceptance
Destroys
The lie
You and I
Have been
Telling
Ourselves
For way too long…
I'm ready
To head up
The mountain,
Will you
Come with
Me?
