People who turn their backs have too much pride, arrogance and ungratefulness look where this got Iblis who is now an evil very very lonely somebody
It made him from an angel to a jinn with just a grain of arrogance in his heart your so lucky
Go find a new hobby
Why because you have the chance to be forgiven and to change and things will will eventually pick up obviously
They will forget what you did to them and you'll no longer appeal in their hearts or eyes as an evil or annoying somebody