Tears in my head, tears in my heart…
This pain is so bad that it tears me apart!
My heart is broken, and sore just now,
I need to keep fighting but don't know how!
It gets harder and harder, this is so true;
It cuts like a knife; I don't know what to do!
I tell my head to listen, and tell my heart to behave…
But the pain that I bear, is oh, so grave!
I look to my left; I look to my right,
But this pain of mine is so out of sight!
If I move an inch, it pains me so,
I can't get any ease, it just won't go!
I sternly tell myself that it is all okay,
But how, dear God, do I get through this day?
Cos I have to tell it, and tell it true;
This pain of mine would be no good for you!
I have taken it all, all of my life;
And all I have lived is a sorrowful strife!
And oh woe is me, I can but try;
To stay focused, but at time, yes I cry!
Then I'd be most thankful, for one night of no pain!
But it won't happen; it's another long night again!
I wonder what it's like, to be pain free!
For just one day or night, just to see…
See what it's like to be in bliss for a while;
And be able to truly give a true smile!
And not have to pretend that all is well…
When really I'm battling through a life of hell!
But I guess I'll get through it, as only I can do!
And stay focused and calm, and loyal and true!
For if this is a test to see if I turn away…
I have to say it; He'll wait many a day…