A New Woman - 6 year lesson

Written at 23 years old (2009)

I take a walk back
My memory goes a long way
Its kind of crazy, but i got alot more to say
I was a duckling which didn't fit in to the end of the day
Yet at the time between the ages 7 to 12 i felt it was important not to be a needle lost in the hay
Yet i got to the age 12 and i stopped caring what came my way
I told my mom to stop getting me dresses i just wanted to be myself
She was helping, but i just wanted to be a tom boy and show what was on my shelf
I couldn't care less what the other girls did or said to me
My daddy may he rest in peace always told me i was beautiful so i felt and thought beautifully
I didn't care that i didn't have a boyfriend or never got asked out
You know what it felt good that i was strong enough to still get on with life without worrying what guys are on about
I was devoted to my religion and dating was a no no
I was a normal teenager i had tantrums and silly strops, slam the door which wasn't good may god forgive me, but sometimes you stomp and go go go
It turned out my hormones were not that of a normal teenager i didn't know until i was 19
That was it the final of the teen
At least i knew alot of things its more for me to say
I was strange and abnormal to people who thought they had to live how society said they should live the day
I lived how i wanted to when i wanted to
So i guess you can say i made life interesting it wasn't the best i had alot to go through
Yet i am glad i learned alot more
For sure
I learned i could be married
How to pay bills, do the groceries, cash and pay in checks for my mom, do the deed
I even learned how to cook, do so many chores and of course love somebody
Handling conflict, beating bullies by showing them i am strong, asking for help and accepting help it was great from the ages 13 to 19 its the time you learn who you are and what makes you that somebody
I learned to be myself how to handle conflict, how to do confrontation, how to end bad friendship and choose good friends, i learned how to be a good Muslim
I learned how to get slim
The right way obviously
I learned how to relive with epilepsy
I even learned how to deal with PCOS
So much more, but i guess i could write a book
Yeah alot of people will wish me luck
Nah it ain't luck i need its patience and i learned alot of that over the past 6 years of being a teenager
I learned to relax and do my homework on time, reach dead lines and how to be a great friend so you can say i think i managed a teenager