I love this man, but deep in the back of my mind
I wonder do he loves me…I wonder if he has truly forgiven
me for breaking his heart, for causing tears to well up in his eyes
for mixing the truth with lies….I wonder when he looks at me
do he hate me, for forcing him to not look at me to same, I wonder
If I'm the reasons for the way our love life has changed…(thinking)...
I got caught up from constantly being ignored and left alone,
which caused my flesh to fall weak and roam…..
But no matter how you look at it, I was wrong… Although years has
flown by since I committed adultery…he barely looks at me..
he tortures me with.... no affection,,,,, but this time I will not allow
his lack of attention to force my lonely flesh in another direction……