My happiness shined like the sun
I saw your name
Upon a white and blue screen
Facing the books
I said i need to call you
To tell you i gotta explain why
To find the next day
Notified none
To see your name no longer there
Are you afraid to rebuild what we built
I felt alone when i moved away
I got so many home truths
I don't wanna say
I don't wanna break you up
Its broken me enough to know
When i am not wanted
I've been second so many times
I don't want to be second again with you
You didn't want anymore to be my best friend
What friend
You were never there
I made so much effort until all the truths
Bard me from the room
Yet your back also turned on me
Now what is this game
Why do you need to be so private
Its OK to speak to me
I aint gonna kill you
I aint gonna fight you
I aint gonna stab you
I aint even got a record
I just wish i wasn't so strange
I wish i wasn't so weird
Or such a geek or such a dork
Yet i was
I was kind of a hothead, but girly you never understood what was wrong
Can't you see each day was a battle with my life
Fighting, pushing, tears and aches
Patronizing me i had to fight to prove everything
I lost my best friend you didn't see me when i cried myself to sleep all night
Its OK
I always said we'd be friends until our lives are through
Just wish i could feel the same, but i always get a vibe from you
Like you don't wanna be around me
I'll never forget the last time we met
Your parents never liked me
Don't try to deny this
I wish i knew what i was doing
Yet the home truths were enough i can see why my mom never listened when i begged to stay close by
Not to move away
Yet i know now
Its OK
I can see why you have to be so private
Yet what i don't understand is
I'll forgive you anyway
I just can't stand this ride
