She blessed me with life, on that cold winters day
Will she now condemn me, and take it away ?
She showed me emotion, and how to care
The meaning of love, and how to share
She took me to school when I said no
And held me close when I wouldn't go
A trip to the Dentist was a living hell
But she came with me, so all was well.
Her love was special, selfless and true
Her mood was electric, and never blue
She bought me my first boots, despite her loathing
"but John Lennon wheres them, can I have the clothing"?
I wore them with pride desregarding the pain
Two sizes too small, my God I was vain !!
She laughed and she cried as I set off for school
Short pants and John's boots, oh what a fool
As the days became shorter she carried me through
Right into manhood with all that she knew
And when my time came, to leave the nest
Her words said one thing, her tears said the rest!
But still she remained there to guide me on
With advice and encouragement, for her only son
When my children arrived she returned to the fore
Convincing us all that she knew more!
And then came the demon that wripped us apart
Depression, Mental illness, where do we start?
It came without warning and screwed up her head
Leaving us all asking, "was it something I said?"
My Dad did his best, and all that he could
It was hurting him deep, we knew that it would!
We all tried to help, and be there for Dad
But she just kept dreaming, of a life she once had
The real world had gone from inside her head
Replaced by old memories and no bills instead!
Dad pulled his hair out, what little he had
Their life had gone, it was making him sad!
The stress and strains of what Dad lived through
Was costing him more than we ever knew!!
On Christmas Eve two thousand and ten
Dad collapsed on the floor, right there and then!!
A Hospital ward was our Christmas day
No baby Jesus, no bed of hay!!
I held his hand through test after test
All the time hoping and praying for the best
Dad just made jokes to lighten the mood
Despite the fact that he hated the food!!
But the news wasnt good when it was told
Dad had cancer, and wouldn't get old!
I brought him home on that difficult night
To be with his family, we would share in his fight!!
We loved him, we bathed him, we shared in his pain
But deep down inside we knew it was in vain !!
He made his Birthday, and ten days more
And then came that dreaded knock on the door
The Angels came calling, they wanted him back
Our hearts stopped beating, our world turned black
And now as we try to pick up our life
With me left caring for Mother, Dad's Wife
I find myself feeling those stresses and pain
Will history repeat itself over again?
Her world is inside her, reality a blur
The only importance, what matters to her !
This illness is evil, it took her away
For 'she' is my Mother, what more can I say?