We were so close once upon a time,
Used to have a giggle or listen to each-others whines,
Go out to places where we chilled with a brew,
Those times I could never imagine my life without you.
You were my cousin, best friend and big sister I never had,
Knew I could talk to you about anything that was making me sad,
We used to enjoy each others company and share our woes,
Used to sit on the hill in the park feeling the grass between our toes.
We used to read magazines together or discuss the latest soaps,
We would encourage each-others dreams, ambitions and hopes,
Whisper our secrets so that we were the only ones who knew,
What life was bringing to me and bringing to you.
Now it's all changed and we don't even talk anymore,
I miss the old days and how we were before,
When I had you in my life and you had me in yours,
Life changed in a way we never saw coming before.
Our family split up with a crack too big to be filled,
After Grandad sadly passed away, there was a fight over the will,
Although not business in which we should have been dragged,
Our parents are siblings and he was their dad.
Now you are pregnant with a precious bundle of joy,
It makes me sad knowing I'll never see your baby boy,
I too am expecting, but mine is a little girl,
Just weeks after yours, she will be entering the world.
It makes my heart heavy knowing this precious time we can't share,
I wish above all, for you I could be there,
And when I look back, I sit and wonder why,
Grandad going to Heaven was our final goodbye?!