(Wrote for my precious Nana, who I miss more everyday!)
Inside a war was being fought all alone,
A fight was engaging it was a danger zone.
Two sides deep in battle one against the other,
It was a fight for the life of you my grandmother.
I could see the effects it had clear in your face,
The smile had gone and pain sat in its place,
You tried to be brave and keep my spirits held high
But all I wanted was to know that you would not die.
Some days I lost you even though you were there,
It broke me in pieces because it was unfair,
To me it was heartache as I could only watch you fight on,
All I wanted for you was for this pain to be finished and gone.
Everyday I could be with you, sometimes you didn't hear,
The words of love I whispered to you in your ear,
As the Cancer took hold I watched with tears in my eyes,
I was not yet prepared to have to say my goodbye's.
I loved you so much it was heartbreaking to see,
The deterioration of someone who meant the world to me!
My best friend and my Nana the one person I held dear,
I couldn't fight off the feeling that the end was near.
Your beautiful heart had stopped beating and you were gone,
It broke my heart in pieces to think that the Cancer had won,
I felt so alone as I knelt beside you and cried,
The biggest piece of me curled up and also died.
Life seemed to stop and the world seemed so cold,
"She is now free of pain" is what I was repeatedly told,
Now here I am and nearly 5 years have flown by,
My heart has not healed and my tears haven't dried.
For everyday I ache wishing you could be here to see,
The sunshine in my life who means the world to me,
My little angel Emily who you would just worship and adore,
As much I love you still like I did before.
The pain will not ease, for me it lives on,
The sunshine I had in my life has permanently gone.
Though I know in my heart your job here was complete,
You are back with the angels and with them you fly free.