I write from my mind and heart
Not always knowing where to start
Or what it is I have to say
Only that some force of gravity
pulls me back this way.
I am engorged, it seems,
With rubber- band dreams
That lead me to this Unfamiliar
Yet, shadowy remembered land
Begging the need for scrutiny;
As if I'd been here once before
And left it's territory prematurely.
So here I am again revisiting this place;
A space in time, past time, present time
Future time, NO time!
Is it a chimerical land inside my mind,
Inside my heart
Because there is NO time to chart?
Were I to believe I was simply pursuing
A rainbow arc caught in the after-dark
Of its refractive dispersion of sunlight
Into an unrelenting mist,
I would stop at once; cease and desist,
Use my energies toward something
More pragmatic; clean the attic!
Yet, the enigmatic nature of my internal journey
Is Persistent if not Insistent
That I am here to search and rescue
Something dear and of great value!
This I'm sure to be the case
For I've known the chase of mixed illusions
And am no longer prone
To the traps of those delusions.
Now my heart bleeds only for a tiny mustard seed
To plant within my soul
So it may once again give growth
Bequeathed by God to make me Whole!