Is this what it's like
Fellas?
To have a girl
Dressed to the nines
Having a good time
Talking to you
Kissing you
To leave you
To the light
Of day
And memories
Of your
Heart laid bare
Before her
To be nothing
More
Than a drunken
Haze?
How many times
Fellas
Have they done this
To you?
Do you let it roll
Off your back
Because you really
Didn't care
To begin with?
It was just
Fun for you?
It wasn't fun
For me.
I asked her
Not to play
With my heart,
And she has
My card…
She's seen
My page,
And nothing
More…
The silence
Is screaming
In my head
What a fool
I was,
To think
I was anything
More than
A kiss
At a party.
Well boys?
Is this what
It's like for you?
To be secretly
Sad,
Pretending to
Be ok
Until the next
Party?
Or is having
The love
Really not
Something
You are looking for
Because you
Like being
A player
More?
Is she the player?
Are you both?
I'm not playing,
I want love,
Because I've
Had my fill
Of fun…
I want substance
And have
Been without
Loving kisses
For way too long.
I settled for a
Club kiss
And got knocked
On my #$%
For my trouble.
At the same time
I'd rather have
The memory of
Her kiss
Than the regret
That I never tried.