i'm thinking of a better time
when tears are just in my memory
and both physical and emotional pain
doesn't hurt so bad
some-days already i'm thankful for
my troubles...though so far
i never wish they
were more...
then this sunlight breaks in
through the blinds as though to say
"I love YOU and I'M HERE"
could i argue that this feeling
is worth any pain???
It feels that way
for awhile
then it leaves because
my mind comes back to
things i have to do
like pay bills
care for my sick, love of my life
i don't plan to worry that he'll die
and most of the time i don't
i'm not sure if it's YOUR GRACE
or me avoiding my feelings...so then i cry a bit
breathe deeply exhale....how i love YOU my LORD
and for a million reasons
HOW does anyone truly exist
without YOUR PEACE?
Today is a funny day
i don't feel so bad
not like yesterday...
AHHH and the good
and the bad are the same
cause YOU LOVE me equally...
So when this body
hurts again
i'll try remember this
"maybe it will be better tomorrow"