Dead on Arrival


Your world is full of darkness

The sun you cannot see

Flowers tear your heart out

Why this chilling void for me?

A life I was to nurture

Has been denied to me

To kiss and smell when freshly bathed

To dress in over cuteness for all my world to see

To pass to them my wisdom

To dry their tiny tears

To make sure they put a vest on

And washed behind the ears

Uniformed on their first day

Pictures to later show

Holding in my head the dreams

Of just how they would grow

I'll never feel their touch

Or give a cuddle when they're down

I can't even read them stories

Or embarrass them being a clown

And the one I thought to count on

The one who should feel this pain

Leaves me standing helpless

No umbrella in the rain

But I'll look to loved ones to help me

And accept what is to be

I'll cry until I'm a desert

And become a stronger me

In time I'll meet the right one

I'll tell him what's gone before

He'll understand my reasons

Of why I am unsure

But try again I will

And I'll kiss those soft soft cheeks

I'll hear the words of mama

When they try to speak

Then I'll look back on these darkened times

As the sun shines on to me

And be able to appreciate

What stands in front of me.

© Steve Ellis (IntotheBlue) 2012