Before I begin - I want to you to know that this is a
story for all who have been abused -
in whatever form that may have taken place - whether
it be verbally sexually - or physically -
No matter what you have gone through - I pray my
story will give you hope- and trust -
in theONE who can heal broken lives - and make them
GOD bless you .
1) THE HURTING ONE AS A CHILD .
Big eyes staring....Timid .... Then defiant
But - not wanting it that way -
Wanting acceptance - security - love ..
Yes - that's it - wanting love -
But what is Love ?
Perhaps this is love - I'm told it is ..
But it's so painful - secretive - haunting -
It doesn't make me feel good .
But who am I to question ? - I am only a child ..
Children comply - they don't question .
Fear makes you comply .
Who made these rules anyway ?
There I go again- more questions ..
If only - maybe - perhaps I could have stopped it ...
Yes - it was my fault after all - I knew it was .
That's it -I'm guilty
So I should feel unclean - unwanted - trapped ...
Yes - I should have said ' NO ' - no - no !
Overload ! ....Too much to bear ...
Shut down - switch off - forget ...
Quiet - breath very softly - close the door .
Make sure no-one sees -
Hide the key ...No ! - Throw it away .
That's it ... Done .
Breathe deeply ....Forget .
Time will heal .
Time will stop the fear .
Time will take away the nightmares - You'll see ..