Higher Power
 

I am not religious

For some this would be a crime

But will I pray to Him

When it is my time

I believe in hell

So it stands to reason I must also believe in heaven

But thoughts of a place of peace

Deserted me when aged but seven

Was He looking out for me

I saw no angels then

But I saw the horns of Satan

They're in my mind again

What was there stopping thoughts of death

Why did I put scars upon my arms

Why did I drink the fluids

In hope my mind stay calm

Why did I look into others eyes

To see if pain or love was there

Why did I take the risks of needle

That not many else would dare

When I begged for mercy upon my bended knee

Why wasn't I set free

When I shut my eyes at night

Why didn't my thoughts go blind

Why did I laugh to hide the agony

In case people saw into my mind

Why did no one tell me

There are people that are kind

I guess I had to find the answers

As I learned to survive my life

I had to find my own god

And put away the knife

But find a higher power I did

And each day that I am free

I look into a mirror

And see the power is within me

© Steve Ellis (IntotheBlue) 2012