I'm dead inside without you
Nothingness is all I see
A sad lonely place this is
Without a you and me
I put on a brave face
smile and hold my head up high
my insides are slowly decaying
All the good in me has died
I can't seem to get a grip on things
you thought I was stronger than I am
I struggle with the little things
this new me, I don't understand
Never before have I hurt this bad
Oh how I wish I were numb
I don't want to feel anything
so to the blade I succumb
It's vice I've suffered many times
when all I wanted to do was feel
the tables now have turned for me
I need to escape all that's real
In the tub,
water tinged red I see
All my feeling seeping out
Relief washes over me
Bleeding myself of emotion
when it's over I'll feel nothing at all
The scars will be a reminder
of the pain caused by loves fall
I'll be more like myself again
this time I'm sure it will work
Giving into the insanity
in the dark corners of my mind where madness has always lurked