when i remember you I feel no hate,
But a reconciliation I'm afraid is too late,
These feelings of emptiness leave me so confused,
Why would I miss being used and abused?
You're the dad to my children so there's always that link,
Things went sour between us quicker than I could blink,
I thought we were OK that we'd always just be,
A couple, two parents, one small family.
You ruined it in weeks, left an irreparable mess,
What went through your head is anyone's guess,
All I ever did was be there, was that not enough?
Was I not important enough to have back your love?
Everyone else came first whilst me and our kids came last,
Things unraveled so quickly, we went downhill too fast,
You pushed me away and I felt so alone,
Living unhappily in what was meant to be our home.
In front of my eyes you changed, to someone I hated,
Lies took over the truth and our relationship deflated,
Whilst I tried to fight it and keep us together,
Fate had ideas that we wouldn't last forever.
And that day came when I finally broke free,
Sick of hurting and hating what you'd done to me,
But now I sit here and my mind switches 'on,'
I turn everything over and wonder what the hell went wrong.
Why did you turn on me like that, every night I wonder,
What made our days of sunshine turn to lightening and thunder?
I fear I'll never know but my heart will always ache,
But my head will be on guard to prevent me making the same mistake.
I hope you get what you deserve be it good or bad,
For me I hope I can move on from feeling low and sad,
I'm hurting inside and I wish it would fade,
So that I can move on to a brighter day.
Vicki Wroe, 22 (C)
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