You have to Truly Realize i can NOT handle any of this
and i will never be strong without HIS smile and kiss!
Nobody can begin to understand....
what Faron and i had 2gether
and without that here i can't smile much less live EVER!
But i'm TRYING to hang on with misery that keeps piling upon
NOT a rock but a human who's already dead and in ruin!
Love You All i do
even after being BEATEN black and blue,
but don't expect me to follow any specific regiment
just accept that i am spent!
Here:the thing
that can really help is to....
be put out of my CONSTANT misery and suffering!
I'm looking
down the barrel
of a gun teasing
me a spell
calling to me
do you intend
to pull my trigger pretty
or have you enlisted another friend?
To do the deed
you want it quick
is what you need
ending the panic
attacks on you
aren't fair
i'll end them true
none left to bear!
You flop like a dead fish
anyhow
i'll grant your wish
to drown now
every sorrow
in the ocean
and of this world tomorrow
have not a notion!
Got you in my sights
can't get away
you give up your rights
to live here another day
full of strife
and want out
BANG in your next life
a rainbow trout!
swim to safety saved from drowning SALLY
