Life has taught me some hard lessons of late,
I've felt a mixture of laughter, sadness and hate,
The road's been long and it's not over yet,
The Tyre prints in my memory wont let me forget.
I've got doubts for my future for I'm held back by my past,
Can't seem to stop things happening too fast,
I wish life would hand me a small little break,
I'm fed up of giving to those who only wanna take.
My head is mashed and my heart is feeling bruised,
Closed away by barriers to stop it getting used.
I can't open up because to me it means I'm weak,
Why can't anyone hear the words I am struggling to speak.
Just someone wrap your arms around me tell me I'm doing ok,
That you're proud of me and the things I overcome everyday,
Don't judge my choices or try to change the things that I do,
Just give me understanding so that I can feel safe around you.
My strength has gone now I'm feeling empty and low,
I'm back in the hole I promised I'd never again go,
Too tired of painting on a smile when I really need to weep,
Sick of living a long nightmare when I'm trying to sleep.